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Anyone have Relationship OCD about their friends? I have never been in a romantic relationship, so I obsess over whether or not my friends undervalue me. Which is a result of just being obsessed with my friends, period. I heard limerence can be tied to OCD? My last therapist thought so. Mind, I also have ADHD so...fixation central. But I do feel like this could all be a touch of narcissism though, lmao. BuT thats a common OCD worry, too. Hm. But like, why do I have to be the MOST/equally important to their boyfriends or else I feel worthless? To me, it's because I feel lame about thinking I love them more, and thinking that I'll always be the one who loves more. I also worry incessantly that I'll never have a romantic relationship, and that I'm not capable of anything more than platonic obsession, despite having a desire for romance and having experiences (very) small crushes. I mostly obsess over the thought that no one loves me, though, and that I'm just cheap entertainmen...and then feel majorly jealous of friends' significant others, despite not being attracted to my girl friends themselves. All this makes me ruminate like crazy on how I'm inferior, or, "god's lonely man (woman)," and it's impossible to reason me out of my anxiety. It also makes me do compulsive things as a distraction, like obsess about an ideal future relationship (some knight in shining armor lmao) and obsessively use tinder and have sex despite not enjoying any of that or having any real desire. Even my friends recognize that I'm addicted to this despite the lack of reward. My behavior always makes things worse but I always think oh next time will be better and I won't feel left out...or I think oh I have to get used to just being a sexual object becauze no one loves me. Does this ring a bell? Platonic and fantasy based ROCD? OCD hypersexuality?

I talked to my mother about what I’m going through. Crying my eyes out. I told her I was worried I didn’t love my partner anymore and that I am so convinced it could be me. My mother told me she went through some pretty bad ocd problems herself but different from mine. My father was abusive to my mother and he told her over and over again no one would ever love or want her. My mom believed it. She was suicidal like me. She told me to stick with what you know and I told her what I know is warped due to the obsessing I’ve done for 8 years... I told her everything I went through. She told me that she admires my relationship with my partner bc we’ve been through a lot that could’ve caused us to break up but we didn’t. I told her what if it is me mom... bc it really feels like it is... she said the same thing as everyone else. You obsessed way too much about it bc you never got help all those years ago. I told her how I miss feeling content and comfortable in my relationship she said it’ll come back but it’s gonna take time. She said that you can’t let your brain control you you control it. I still feel very off right now but I was able to kiss my partner and happily without weird feelings. Then the what if’s came back then I started obsessing about what if he’s boring... so I started feeling off about that.

I've been on and off here and I have felt like there's no hope with my OCD and other times that I'm on the right track. Consistency has been hard for me. I'm a carpenter and do a lot of side work after my full time job. I'm also a husband, father (expecting another), and a triathlete. Stress is my main trigger and my obsessions range from POCD, Harm OCD, HOCD, and just general anxiety. There's days when I am ready to take on OCD bit then I let it kick my butt sometimes. I have a hard time doing ERP because I don't feel like I know what I'm doing, or it feels wrong because it's not "normal". I guess I'm just seeing if anyone can relate and motivate me again. I think I can do it but im losing a bit of belief.

does anyone else get morning anxiety or rather, anxiety whenever you wake up? doesn't really matter what time, but by the time you're awake, you get anxious and your problems seem like they multiplied as if sleeping collected all your troubles and threw them at you by the time you woke up

Can't stop compulsively binge eating after a traumatic experience took place. Any suggestions for how I can get this under control?

No one understands my OCD in my family. No one knows any of my themes and I just need someone to be able to talk to. I just want to cry and be in my dark room forever.

I feel like a worthless disgusting child sexual abuser. Basically , I saw a video with an 11 year old who looked 16. I remember thinking he was 16, and that he looked really good . I don’t know if it was aesthetic or romantic attraction towards him. I can’t tell . I just thought he looked good . Then the next clip the dude was 24, and said he was 11 in that . I got really anxious today and Watched the video to gauge how old he looked to make sure I’m not a pedo. Then I think I was attracted to him again . Fuck. The evidence is that I had a feeling similar to the last time , a groinal response , and I remember thinking he had really nice eyes , and looking st his skin . I never intended to like deliberately look at him sexually . I remember having a thought , Then a groinal . Idk what the thought was . I remember my intentions were just to gauge how old he looked. But I remember thinking things like “he had really pretty eyes “, and that he had nice skin and bone structure . What if I looked at Him to feel pleasure ? From what I know , it was just , “oh photogenic”, but if that’s the case why did I feel a groinal ? Why did I feel similar to the first time I saw him ? How tf do I live with myself ? Do I even deserve it ? I’m not trying to seek reassurance but I am helpless right now and don’t know what to do .

Anyone else have a hard time letting things go in your head? It's been almost 24 hours and my anxiety/anxious thoughts have not let up. My OCD is making me feel guilty about something that I shouldn't be feeling so anxious about.

was feeling a lot better today and then my friend sent me something that made me feel so much worse wheeeew

I can’t stop looking on Reddit or coming on this app or watching videos on ROCD! It’s driving me insane!! I just want this to stop!! I know I love my partner a lot but why can’t things go back to normal!!!! Is it bc I am in denial!?! I know when I say I love you to my partner I mean it... I want my relationship back!!!

Had anyone here completed TMS treatment for OCD? I completed mine 2 weeks ago but have been feeling constantly nauseous. Anyone else experience this? Does it subside? I'm trying to figure out what's causing all this nausea.

SOMEONE WITH POCD OLEASE HELP I THINK I SEXUALLY ABUSED A CJHILD. so there was a video where this 11 year old looked about 16. Im 17, and often tend to be attracted to 16 year olds . Idk if I felt attraction , or if it was just a simple “that’s a good looking person “Then the guy said he was 11 in that pic and I was shocked . Today as a compulsion and I went and looked at the picture again . I felt a groinal response , and again had a moment of “that’s a nice looking person “, it was similar to what I experienced the first time I looked at the picture . It lasted for 2 seconds . I was trying to gauge the age of the kid and how old the kid looked to make sure I was not a pedo . Now I don’t think I’m a pedo but I’m terrified that what I did was sexual abuse , because looking at kids for sexual gratification/ sexual curiosity is sexual abuse and want to puke

So i'm not in therapy right now for HOCD, but i'm trying to do my own exposure therapy, i'm trying not to avoid female friends or female stuff on tv or in videogames, sometimes i just get overwhelmed especially if I see stuff on tiktok or youtube? I also feel guilty because it's like, it feels like everyday theres smthn new to worry about? sometimes i get intrusive thoughts when i see surveys and stuff ask for pronouns?? i put she / her but then i get nervous and think "is that really my pronouns?" it's scary.. and then my brain is like "i'm a guy" and it's like "no??? i'm a girl" Everytime someone says "oh me and my girlfriends" i immediately think of a relationship between two women, sorry this is like a vent but can anyone else relate? :)

Does anyone else get it where they just don’t know if the relationship is worth fighting yourself for

What do people think about Ali Greymond? I used to watch her videos which was helpful but then I found some OCD therapists and advocates saying that she was a coach and that it’s more unethical??? But then again I’ve seen so many people saying they find her work very helpful.

To my fellow bisexual ladies (female presenting or AFAB) who have never been with women before but are in relationships with men... do y’all ever get the feeling of obligation or the need to at least see what it’s like to be with a woman?? I love my bf with all my heart and he completely supports my preferences. I know that I might not want to be with a woman romantically, but the sex just looks amazing. But I feel guilty. Idk. Ik these are just thoughts and that I love having sex with my boyfriend, but it’s just the weird fear of NEEDING to be with a woman just once. Am I the only one here?

Hey guys I’ve been wanting to rant and maybe someone will listen or give me advice but if not that’s fine too. (p.s not OCD related) I feel very lonely in life at the moment. I don’t have a large amount of friends. The friends I do have are not very close to me and they all have their BFFs but I’m just like on the outside of all the other friendships. One (or the only one) of the BFFs I had turns out to be a bit Transphobic and the trans community is a community I respect soooo much and it feels like a betrayal to that community to be friends with her (the person who’s a bit Transphobic) but i don’t wanna loose another friendship. Almost everyone has their friend groups and friendships and stuff but almost no one pays attention to me. And I try to give my all to any friendship big or small but the other person never seems to care. I’ve been thinking reaching out to classmates I rarely talk to but even that feels wrong. I don’t know what to do.

I'm feeling really overwhelmed and struggling with urges to engage in unhealthy coping skills. I feel so alone and like I just need the relief but I also know I really shouldn't. I don't know if it's bad enough to call someone for help, but regardless it hurts like hell...

That’s it I need to die!!! I feel anxiety!! I don’t wanna break up with my partner!!! But this feeling won’t stop!!! I don’t wanna replace him!!!!! 😭😭 I want my content & comfortable relationship back!!! 😖😖😭😭

I am like freaking out because I’m the past there were a couple of women who I like really looked up to and wanted their approval. I would really look forward to seeing them and talking to them, but now I heard that looking back lesbians realized that they disguised their crushes by saying them just wanted to be like the girls but they actually wanted to be with them. Now I am so worried that the feeling we’re too intense to be just admirations and they were actually crushes even though I never thought about them romantically or sexually. Ugh I just give up with this whole thing. I am so depressed