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it’s perfectly healthy to think about experimenting it’s perfectly healthy to think about experimenting it’s perfectly healthy to think about experimenting this doesn’t mean i’m bisexual

My mind is making me think I have a crush on this boy and I don't. I dont know how to sit with this anxiety. I keep.looking at pictures of him and because I thought he looked kind of nice in a couple pictures my OCD says I like him and I want to message him. No one seems to understand. This is making me cry and I feel like it must be real but I can't tell. I just want to cry. Can anyone please help me. My mind is confusing me to the point where I am thinking it is real

Why won't the thoughts and the anxiety ever fucking stop?! It seems to be worse when I'm tired. It's just NON-STOP with, "I'm gay, I'm gay, I'm gay" even when I'm trying to keep myself busy. It never. Fucking. Stops. I feel like I'm gonna break down and have a panic attack at some point. What exacerbates it even more is this dread feeling I get about sex now. Whenever I look at women I'm reminded of it, or when I try to talk to women. Because my libido is basically zero right now, it's feeding the OCD even more. And the worst thing is that I can't tell if it's just a low libido, or if I actually don't find women arousing anymore. I really can't fucking tell sometimes. I WANT to be able to have fun with women again but my brain is fucking it all up.

Hi everyone I’m new here ! I have a child that i suspect has bad thought ocd. Does anyone have children with this?

Can SO-OCD make you feel that you're so trapped, to the point that you think you're just in denial at this point because you don't feel that much anxiety? That's what I feel right now, and I just wanna cry because everything makes me so skeptical about my sexuality. It feels like I have this special ear that makes me hear any key words related to homosexuality. Everyone I see, I automatically think they're somewhat a closeted gay. What's happening to me? I don't feel like myself...

So one thing I noticed is that the more I engage into compulsions (ruminating, checking, mental reviewing, seeking reassurance, googling stuff ...) the more real the thoughts, feelings and urges feel. Which then leads to more compulsions and keeps me trapped. I‘m just curious to know why is it like that? Does anyone know science behind this? And I noticed that things that used to reassure me stop working at some point which leads to me seeking for more reassurance.

So recently I started taking zoloft, around a week or two ago... and it's done WONDERS for me,, then around a day ago i forgot to take it at my normal time which is around noon and instead took it at 4pm... then the next morning i woke up with my thoughts racing, theyre worse in the morning but throughout the day they die down, this morning i woke up with a racing heartbeat and major anxiety... then i started having diarrhea and major nausea, is this all cause i took my medicine late?? could i possibly be getting my period?? like i'm so confused. I don't want to go into another anxious / depressive episode... i've finally felt good for the first time in like a month because of Zoloft...

i’m so scared i might of possibly went too far w erp

Been crying a lot.. Last night and a few minutes ago. Don't know what to do. Real event is hard. I want to live in the present and not be bothered by the past. The person I'm no longer associated with. The mistakes I would no longer make but constantly worry about. I just want to be free and obsess no longer. I don't want to fear that I'm a criminal or a bad person anymore..

Has ocd ever made any of you feel delusional at one point?

okay so correct me if i’m wrong but i think i’ve been really confused for a while: so sexual attraction is finding a specific person sexually attractive and wanting to have sex with them arousal: is finding a specific fantasy or porn hot and getting aroused by this. or whatever “turns you on” i get aroused by lesbian fantasies sometimes but i get real confused because in the moment i imagine myself in that position and sometimes it feels like i actually want that? but how could i want that i don’t experience sexual attraction to girls. maybe that’s just because i’m in a relationship with a man but if we broke up i don’t think i would find another girl in real life sexually attractive.

I need some more alcohol 😞

Anyone else get super attached to someone ( person you’re in the “talking” stage with ) than they act a little off or distant and you fall into a empty feeling

Yeah I’m convinced my ocd is going to make my suffer for the rest of my life. I shouldn’t plan any goals or think something good will ever happen to me. Being positive is a waste of time and I know that now.

My father was emotionally abusive to my siblings and I as children, I can't say he's changed much. He came home yesterday just pissed off at the world, I guess, decided it was appropriate to make violent comments about our dogs to me and then go in the house and scream at my mother and sister. After my mom told him off, he acted like he was,,,apologetic but you could tell he still felt he was in the right. I have been fatigued and apathetic ever since that incident. I have so much to do. I can't move out right now because I'm just barely functional, don't even have a job. This childish behavior is normal for him. There are three of us and one of him, yet the household revolves around his fragile feelings. If we stand up to him then he stomps off to lick his wounds and feel sorry for himself, acts like a fucking child. I have been afraid of him my entire life, and it seems like the older he gets the worse he becomes. I can't leave my dogs with him, I can't leave my sister with him. My mom is like,,,,desensitized to him, almost. Last year she told him that she was considering divorcing him, and all he did was mock her and treat her like a child. He's such a piece of shit.

Hi, I created a Discord Server for people with OCD. You can chat here and/or game but you don’t have to play any games whatsoever. The server name is called The Plaza of Friends; the link is https://discord.gg/fJpvADywzc And that doesn’t work use this one https://discord.gg/EETg92c4yp If you are on your phone and it doesn’t work, try using a computer to join. Here are things we do on the server: we usually can just chat, whether that is voice chat or text chat (pick the ones you prefer) and chat about our OCD. You can also chat about your traumas or things that have happened in your past that have bothered you. We mainly discuss things about how we can help with OCD or our experiences with OCD at 12 pm eastern time but we would prefer that we get more people with different time zones because there is a person in India in our server, so that would be good for them. Please, if you join, introduce yourself with your theme, so that If I don’t know about your theme I can add it and make it a channel. It doesn’t matter what type of theme it is or how severe your OCD is, I just hope you have a community that can help you out. What we prefer (but you don’t have to do right now): We hope that you can get in our voice channels at least once a week, or chat in our general chat once a week (I hope you do both because I don’t have anyone to talk to); we want everyone on the server to at least to participate at least a little. This isn’t something you have to do right now, or for a month, but we hope that when you join the server, you can at the very least participate in the chat. We hope to have 40 to 50 people on our server. Right now, there are 14 (at least right now, some people keep leaving) and so if 36 people can join, that would be great. What we want (meaning I would personally like but you don’t have to do): We would like that if you have some sort of game in mind. This can literally be any game. It can literally be phone games like candy crush, pocket edition Minecraft, the fancy pants adventures to console games like Call of Duty and Grand Theft Auto 5 to Nintendo games like Mario (I don’t know any more types of games) to PC Games like, again, Call of Duty, Minecraft, Grand Theft Auto 5, whatever you want. Whatever will keep people chatting. About complaints and Adjustments to the server: If you want me to add anything to the server or make adjustments to the server, just message me personally or comment in the area of the personal complaint of the server. Whichever makes you comfortable. If you want me to upgrade you to a role where you can become an admin and you can join private channels, add roles, and add bots to the server, please contact me personally about that. I want to make the server a comfortable and interactive place and I want to make sure I’m doing everything right. I hope you can join the server, whether it's to chat or help me out. I will only be accepting 8 people for this but if you can join the server just to chat and/or game that would be great. When you join the server, Introduce yourself. I will try to join the voice channel at 12 pm eastern every day but I might not make it all the time. If you can join, that would be lovely. I hope I see you there. I can comment on this post so that I can make sure people are seeing this post. Please feel free to ask me a question in the replies or contact me on discord KaniYadoKari #9997 Remember, you can be of all ages, colors, and backgrounds to join this server. So again, I hope I see you there. I really hope I and other people in the server can make some friends.

HI! I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this? I've had religious OCD since my first massive panic attack aged 10. At that age I had know idea what a Panic Attack was so thought God was punishing me. Now comes the tricky part, I'm an atheist!! I don't actually believe in the thing that terrifies me to the point of multiple hospitalisation 😭😭 Could anyone shed light on this?

I have my first appointment with counselor today. I’m nervous and afraid they are going to tell me I don’t have ocd and I need to look elsewhere. It was a big deal in reaching out this far. I hope it goes well.

Real OCD Event is horrible. I have intrusive thoughts about something illegal I did 7 months ago and while I agree with the thoughts, because I do deserve to pay for what I did, it seems that the only way to deal with this type of OCD is by ignoring the intrusive thoughts, but it's hard to ignore them when I'm talking to someone and the "if they knew what you did they wouldn't talk to you" thought pops.

Did some exposures in therapy today. Not very fun but I know that's the point. Of course my mind tries to seize on loss of attraction to make it worse. Hopefully turn a corner soon. I need some rest.