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This is for those who experience menstrual cycles: If you have a period does it make your OCD worst during that time? I think today will be the first day of my cycle and I’ve been super bad today.

I need advice..: so I talked to this guy and I felt like I really like him and then he got scared and said he needed to make himself happy first so we stopped talking then one day he called and now we are talking but I keep feeling like I’m not really into him and I really wish I was and I’m still sticking around giving this a chance I just don’t feel like I’m very attracted to him but I think I have something really good and idk if I need to back off so he doesn’t get hurt or if I should keep giving it a chance. It’s been maybe a little over a month since we started talking and I’ve only hung out with him twice when we met and when I stayed the night we him. Advice and opinions please?

Has anyone had experience with reducing your medication causing relapses with OCD and bad anxiety/depression? (I take an antidepressant in this case).

I have POCD. I have constant thoughts of raping and molesting children every time I see one everytime I'm near one. Images through my mind. Last year it gotto the point where I aunt to the police station for the medical pictures I look at to turn myself in for child pornography all I didn't feel like a constant danger to society and have distant thoughts of suicide. I thought I'd be dagger in jail. The police officer didn't feel that way and decided to take me to be evaluated. I hot upset and busted or his window,then he needed to take me to jail. While in jail I became severely depressed realizing my pain would never in and they sent me to the hospital. They hired a forensic specialist to find a program. Is was determined there were 12 in the country 2 of which wouldbe eligible for a single case agreement. 2 of which I was denied. Outpatient therapy is only self pay. The hospital days they can only " keep me safe" until I all ready to deal with my thoughts again. I'm tired of the hospital. Medication doesn't work anymore. I'm tired of medication as well. 14 years of my 27 ice been dealing with this. I've decided to love the rest of my life outside of jail where I feel most safe where I inevitably kill myself. I had hope at one point and it is gone. I deserve pain I know. But I want it to be over I'll tired of fighting to be safe. I'm tired of being scared. My case manager sent me this link for support. I can't hold on much longer. I just want to make it through the weekend so I can talk to my therapist

Encountered a pretty bad OCD trigger today. I suffer from mild sexual orientation OCD. It used to be pretty bad, but I tackled a lot of it with ERP, and it got significantly better, but I got super busy with school and slacked on my sessions a little, and things have started to get a bit worse. I went to the city on a ‘girls day’ out with a few of my friends today. We were just talking, and my friend thought she saw a strip club, and I said “I’d kinda like to go to a strip club, just for the experience”, and she looked at me confused, and said “girls?”, and i said “yeah, it just seems like it’s fun with the music and stuff” - HOCD not even in my mind at this point, I just genuinely think strip clubs would be fun, not in a sexual way, as I said - and then she went, “you sure you’re not a lesbian” and started laughing. I was hugely triggered. I know I’m not a lesbian, and I knew what I meant - but OCD does what it does, and that really triggered me. But, it didn’t make me nearly as anxious as it once would’ve done, and the silver lining is that it was a good exposure! I just felt like writing this here, because I know there’s a lot of likeminded people who will understand how that was triggering.

My brain keeps saying "you should come out lesbian, tell her your a lesbian" but I don't wanna be a lesbian... I want to like boys... I like Boys! I think... I mean thinking abt liking them makes me happy so why can't I just like guys... I hate this. I'm so confused idek anymore.

Anyone, please help me . My intrusive thoughts are constant. They are horrible violent ones and they are constantly in my head. Does anyone have any method to just suppress them or make them less overpowering.

I'm going to see a psychiatrist on Thursday. What should I tell him so he recognizes signs of Pure O? It's very important to me that he understands that I don't just 'worry about stuff', and that I may have OCD although I don't have many phisical compulsions

Can someone give me help or advice? I've been so scared of the day I'll finally open up about how horrible my OCD and its themes are to my boyfriend. I can't do it rn because I need to get a diagnosis first but I'm so scared of how he'll react. But I also want to open it up bc It's something I struggle with Like will he accept me? judge me? It's so hard because he tells me he loves me so much and will stick by me no matter what but I don't know if he's ready for what I'm about to open up to him. I also don't know how detailed should I explain it. I have a confession compulsion wherein I feel like I have to explain everything in detail but of course I'm sure the nitty gritty details will make him (even me) uncomfortable like how I've had POCD intrusive thoughts about his nephew and the thoughts I've had when I was ruminating during it. So do I explain like I have POCD and it can involve people I know in real life like your family? Like it's generalized too for future POCD attacks. How do I go about this? How do I open it up and refrain from feeling guilty if I didn't give all the details or feel like I'm leaving things out? Any advice on how to explain how horrible OCD is? I basically just want him to understand how tormenting and horrible it is but I have no control over my thoughts and I just want his support and acceptance.

Any tips for fear of flying? I’m not actually scared of the act of flying. I more psych myself out with things like “what if I have a panic attack while I’m in the air for 9 hours and I can’t do anything about it?” “What if I go crazy and need to get to the emergency room immediately and I can’t?” I used to fly all the time, but since my OCD got really bad, being in a confined space in a situation where I have no control terrifies me. I haven’t flown in 2 years now. I’m just scared of having a panic attack in the air. And I always get that “am I going to go crazy?” feeling during a bad episode. I know I won’t actually go crazy, but I know especially being in the air is going to trigger that.

I remember the exact night my brain turned on me last year and it’s just been downhill ever since. I just don’t understand why I’ve gone all my life so far without OCD and it just hit me out of nowhere at 25.. i guess everyone is different.. but I just don’t know what to do now. I’m terrified to try meds. Therapy is expensive. I just feel so lost.

I want to ask people here If this makes me a p3d0. I read fanfiction since I'm 10 and since I'm 12 I started to read about yaoi( gay sex) This last months of 2020 and first of 2021 I read horrible stuff. I found this ship(paring) and the characters have 13 and 10. I read fanfiction about them. I remember telling myself that It doesn't matter If I read about them I'm 15 and they are just drawings, and the only thing I should do is imagined them older. I and I have now flashbacks and I couldn't imagine them older. I also read some bizarre things involving one of the characters. Another thing I used to do months ago was fantasizing about gay sex, and one of the guys would be really feminine to the point of looking like a boy. I have memories of me trying to imagined them older, but I don't remember If I did that all the time. I'm sorry to everyone. I never wanted to be this person now. I don't know why I did it anyways if I knew it was bad.

My Trans OCD story. I hope this will help someone. If you have TOCD, reach out- lets support each other. Here goes: Last Easter, about two months after I got a severe concussion, I got dressed up for the first time. Skirt, blouse, lipstick, etc. I looked in the mirror and a part of my brain said “you look like a man in drag.” It shocked me, it scared me, it disgusted me. In august, I called a suicide hotline because the thought came back “what if you are a man?” It disturbed me so much my first thought was to check myself into a hospital- it’s opposite of everything I’ve ever wanted for my life. It left for a few more weeks and then I woke up one day and my brain started in again, this time nonstop. I considered ending my life again. Then I met my boyfriend. He changed everything. With him, I feel like myself. But I can’t be with him every minute of every day. And when I’m not with him, the thoughts are back. It’s so disgusting and disturbing. I have no problem with the trans community, I *adore* my lgbt friends. But they have a desire and a need to transition from the gender the are not to the gender they are meant to be. I feel like my brain is dragging backwards bound and gagged from my desired gender to a place I have no business being. My thoughts are now 24/7. With ERP the anxiety is fading but in some ways that is scarier: they feel more real. I am having a rough time again but I KNOW I can beat this.

Are antidepressants effective for dealing with ocd. I was on them for 6 months .. it may have helped.. i stopped kina cold turkey .. it’s been manageable most of the time but there are bad days

I don't think I have ocd anymore??? Those thoughts aren't there anymore, no compulsion have done for weeks, no weird feelings, no intrusive anything,, I have been doing fine actually.. Am I recovered or is this ocd doing?? 💀

False feelings anyone ? 😞

Do you guys think this is ROCD or am in denial(I prey not). I've been in a relationship with my girlfriend for almost 8 months now and I assume I fell out if the honeymoon faze a long time ago. I get worried because sometimes i feel annoyed with her and don't feel like I love her and then other times I just want to love all up on here, cuddle with her, and give her affection. I'm just scared because it just seems like most of the time It doesn't feel like I am attracted to her or that I love her. I want to fight and keep pushing because I know love is a choice but I don't know if i'm just in denial or not. I just really want to feel the way I used to about her or at least like not feel doubtful and feel like almost repulsed by her (in a way ig). I just want to feel for her again please helppppp.

guys this is so cruel and i feel so bad for this, but i blocked my boyfriend from messaging me. (besides the cruelty of it i want your input as to how you think it could help). my rationale was that each day as of now is just a day of brain fog, tears, stress and hopes i could just have that one hour of bliss on the phone with him. but.. am i wrong for thinking it’s not healthy to depend on someone emotionally like that? he insists that we need people for connection, and while i agree, i think ive really been using him for emotional dependency. i feel like i just need to cut off my expectations of him giving me happiness. am i wrong in doing this? should i have gone about this a different way? god i hope i havent gone crazy

Please Read. I need to say this because I want to be hold responsible, but I also want to know if I can move on from this and tried to have a life again. Like before, but with I hope better decisions. I have a story similar to others, when I was 5 I was a curious girl and I was curious about sexuality. I play with my cousin and he touch my parts, my cousin was 3 years younger than me. I regret that after the first time because in my deep I knew that was bad, but the game continue because my cousin like it and he say that he wouldn't play with me anymore if we don't play that game. This Lasted some years until I put a stop because the guilt was much. I started avoiding him. I still fear that he would think that play was fine because of me and play like that with his future daughters, or sister. Time passed and I was 11 and I discovered fanfictio. I started with straight fanfiction, but then I started reading gay fanfiction more and more. And then the only thing I read was smut gay fanfiction. I have ocd since I'm ten. I would think I do something sexual to a teacher, and I would check my memory to verify I didn't. So I know I have OCD. This 2020 I started to have magical thinking ocd, and I would think this man is a rapist and then I would tell a phrase in my head saying he's not a rapist. I also started to have dreams about children, and I freak out. I also had intrusive thoughts about my cousin, my cousin's little sister. Of her being in a sexual way, and I would pray that nothing happened to her. I daydream a lot, and I started daydreaming erotic things. And one of the erotic things would be gay sex. I started to have daydreams about gay sex, and I would imagine a teen muscular man, and a teen feminine boy. Now I regret this with passion because now I fear that the fem guy look like young boy. I also read a lot of bad stuff on wattpad. Like a fanfic of a 13 and 10 boys having sex, and in the moment I thought to myself that it wasn't nothing. That I have just 15, and they are drawings, and the only thing I should do is imagine them older. Now I have flashbacks that I didn't. I also avoid looking children in tv or family members because I would imagine something bad, and I didn't want to do that. I also started to notice that some younger boys look a lot alike to the fem boys I would imagine. I also started avoiding looking tv children because of this. I also would tell myself that the guy that i imagine were teens not boys. This last days of February I started to watch wandavision. And this series had two boys that were billy and tommy. For people that don't know. Billy is one of the popular gay characters in marvel, so I started daydreaming about the future of this boy, but in teen, but when I tried to make him look older, I couldn't. I also started to notice a grionial reaction when I look at the boys, and I freak out. I start to look if OCD can make this happen, and I was relieved to hear that it could happen, but I still had my doubts. I started to have grionial constantly, and I had a lot of guilt. I didn't want to eat, i didn't want countinue living. My mom notice and I have to calm down. I need to explain my situation. I'm a immigrant. My family is also an immigrant. My that don't like to live in the states. The only reason he is still here is me. Because he wants me to have a good future. Everything was okey. I still had the images and grionial reactions, but everything was okey. This April. I don't remember the day. I started to have grionial reactions with intrusive images. And i decided to change the image and touch myself with that image, but then the image shift and I had to stop myself, and went to the bathroom. But the grionial reaction felt to strong. I was mad at myself because I knew the image was going to shift. I tell myself that it was the ocd until days later I started to feel guilty about it. Last weekend I was trying to see Netflix to distract myself. And I see the cover of a series and I imagine the sexual scene but the scene shift, and I visualize my sister cousin in it, and the scene was too real, and I had a strong grionial reaction. I feel bad but I told myself that it was ocd. Days later the scene was really prominent in my head because I'm almost sure that I did it on purpose, and I checked why I did it, and I repeat in my head again and again and again, and the worst thing is that I have grionial reactions always. Each time I less and less convince that it was ocd. Other thing I wanted to tell is that this weekend and week I convince myself that I was a p3d0 multiple times for long periods of time. And after I imagine that with my cousin again and again I feel like I crossed a line I was before. Yesterday I felt empty and anxious only trying to recreate the scene in my head trying to look for something that would tell me is ocd. Today a feel normal, with guilt like always, but normal. My mom ground me because I lie to her because I didn't eat. I started to eat less because I didn't have the energy, and because I felt like I don't deserve it. And my dad also have to talk to me. So I had to calm myself down. Now I don't know what to do. I need to keep forward for my family because the only thing my that is still in this country that is sucking his energy is me. And I did everything of above. I can't end my life because I can't do that to my family, but how I'm going to live with this in my conscious. I imagine my little cousin like that and I repeat the scene multiple times. Today I see the thumbnail of a boy, and he remember me of the fem guy i used to imagine and I feel I grionial reaction, and now I feel guilty. I had the opportunity to do the right thing to stop this to happen, and I take the wrong choice everytime. When I tell myself that the guy look young, I just told myself that it looked like an teen girl. I screw myself over, and I don't know what I should do. I need to keep going forward for myself, but after everything I imagine and did I don't know. I don't want to be a p3d0 but now it feels like i'm one. I always feel afraid of going to hell because of what I did when I was 5, but now I'm sure I will never be with my family in heaven. Not after everything I imagine. I can't cry, and I want to cry, I want to feel something but I can't. I just feel guilt and nothing. I regret everything. I'm sorry. I will go to a therapist in the future. When I'm old enough to do it on my own. I don't want to feel this anymore and I just want this to stop, but honestly after I imagine that about my little cousin I can't move on. The scene is in my head, and I still have grionial reactions. When i tried to concentrate in class I have flashbacks about what i did. I write this to ask people if I deserve to tried to pretend that this never happened, and pretend to be normal. And when I have an intrusive scene or image avoid it and move on. I just want someone to tell me that I can have a normal life after this. I don't know if I'm a p3d0 or is pocd or both. I just want to move on. Please someone tell me that I can move on. And tried to be better and that I can change and be normal again. Please I need that. Is the only thing I want to hear. I'm 15 right now. I just want to hope that this is not going to be me for the rest of my life.

Good Friday To You Folks: I am a 28 year old man with HOCD, POCD, and ROCD. Here’s some of my thoughts and feelings. I have been struggling with this my whole life, and as I begin to grasp this, who care attitude, things slowly start to become muddly more clear. First off, “who cares” is not the right attitude to go towards things. I had a previous therapist tell me to take that attitude, and because I have an obsessive mind, I obsessively devalued, degraded, and disavowed my values. This sent me into a manic and depressed state that I hope no one has to go through. Values are subjective to those that hold them, and by others telling you their values are right and wrong, especially when they and society feels they have the moral high ground, it can get real confusing. Everybody has values that they developed with, and that what makes you who YOU are, so as long as your values are hurting others than your values are right, regardless of social standards of your own values. Not to reassure, but as far as sexual standards or your own sexual interests, If your interested in women and a male or vise versa, or any interests that don’t negatively affect the other party THATS OK! It seems like a societal norm to not have traditional views on sexuality, and that if your curious in swimming in the new formed views on sex that if you try it or even imagine it, than your OCD tells you that is what you have to be. That’s your all or nothing thinking and that’s not the truth. As far speaking for males, I myself can warp anything into a sexual situation because I’ve been so obsessed with sex. Now that I begin to calm, I begin to realize. It doesn’t make those feelings developed in my manic moments go away, but it makes some of the pieces of the puzzle connect better. Kick today’s ass so tomorrow doesn’t kick yours, try to stay calm, and love each step. Best wishes