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Advice please! I have OCD, and it’s wormed it’s way to my relationship. It particularly revolves around social media, trust and the security of being together “forever”. I whole heartedly trust my partner. However, we all know that OCD causes doubt in the most rational things. Lately, if I get an irrational thought, I ask my partner if it’s true or not true, I get the affirmation I need, and then I feel intense guilt. The cycle begins again because I feel insecure for asking such questions, How do I work through these nagging thoughts and not bring my boyfriend into it? I get super impulsive and just ask him to reassure me. When I don’t ask him and challenge the thought, I’m really moody with him. I’ve had OCD my entire life and have “cured” other obsessions/rituals but for some reason, this one is tough, since another person is involved. Any advice?!

I feel pretty dumb and emotionless right now. Do not feel like myself. Again, no libido, forced with HOCD, don’t want to go anywhere except stay in bed. I just want my love for women to be back. I just don’t feel the same anymore. I’m looking up stuff and it says that this shit affects relationships with your girlfriend/Significant other and now I’m even more depressed over this shit. It’s like when I genuinely try to think about her, I feel good, then it immediately goes away, she is so beautiful, we want everything together. Why am I in my own hellhole of doom in my head. Seriously, I love this woman deep down, I want to be intimate, so why is that so hard to ask? Why do I have to suffer? I’m almost done with this bs

I get bullied at school for having this. What should I do?

Hi everyone! Hope everyone’s doing well. I just wanted to ask a question because I’ve been trying to improve with not letting the intrusive thoughts make me spiral, but something happened the other day that has been making me really upset, and down, but I don’t know if my worry is connected to my OCD or if it’s just general feelings. I just wanted some advice. Basically, I’ve been struggling with POCD and also have struggled with HOCD however the HOCD is not as bad now, however I do still frequently get the intrusive thoughts. Anyway, someone on here told me and several sites that I had been making my OCD worse by avoiding things such as masturbating or porn to avoid the intrusive thoughts in these situations. So the other day, I tried to watch some whilst masturbating, and not stopping if the intrusive thoughts came, and just try and brush them off and not have a guilt spiral. But I watched a video that came up and it was a man working as a masseuse and there were different women coming in and he was massaging them but going close to her down below and then touching her there. And the camera angle was weird, and it looked hidden and I did get a bit worried about it but just carried on. But then I looked at the top of the video and it said sponsored by hidden cameras in massage places. And then I was like omg no what if this video has been uploaded and the women didn’t have consent and they didn’t know they were being filmed and I’ve just watched a man touching them. And I didn’t stop the video, I watched for around 20 more seconds and then turned it off so now I feel so so guilty, and I feel like a terrible person. Is this my OCD ? I’m just so stressed and feel awful, I keep trying to brush the thoughts away but it’s becoming difficult to, and it’s making me feel terrible. Any help ?

I have had harm intrusive thoughts for over 45 years. Though I fell better I still have bad weeks or months. Retired law enforcement, I saw alot of bad things that triggered my OCD. My faith in God has got me through, but I also believe God puts people in your path to help so you in return can help others. Thank you for everyone involved that have the courage to share there story. Thanks, Jeff

Ocd warriors please some advice ❤️ Are fake feelings a thing? Or am I just making stuff up. Sometimes I “feel” all these horrible things about my partner but I know even in those moments deep down that I love him! And when I’m not in those moments it’s not even just deep down that I love him - it’s right there, on the surface. I even feel guilty typing ‘deep down’ but it’s the only way I can try and explain it. I’m a 13hr shift tomorrow and I can’t even bare to think of it and how I will get through it feeling the way I do. For the first time in a while I’ve had suicidal thoughts and that’s not really like me. My fake ‘feelings’ make me feel I’ve betrayed my boyfriend, and I feel I’m not in control and have opposite actions. For example actions I don’t want to do, that I do. E.g, leaning too close over a colleague when reaching for something near them. I don’t know what else to do?

Hey guys I just wanted to share something with you, please read I'm a 15 year old guy suffering from HOCD and it just doesn't seem to go away. It feels like everything is so real and my life was just a lie upto this point. I am starting to believe that my attraction to girls was false and I am actually attracted to men. Idk up till I was 14 I was attracted to girls but now I feel that during puberty my real sexuality is emerging. Now these thoughts are becoming increasingly annoying and these thoughts are starting to affect my personal life. My relationship with my parents is getting bad and these thoughts are starting to have bad effects on my studies and school life. It feels really bad and just doesn't seem to go away. I can't tell you how many hours of my life have been wasted thinking about these thoughts. This was just my rant and if anyone read till the end thanks a lot for reading this and I hope everyone here becomes free of their ocd and I pray that your ocd will vanish and you will start living a healthy life again. Thanks for reading.

i don’t know why i am constantly so afraid and anxious when i am alone especially at night like all i think about is is someone looking at me or watching me or is someone going to break in etc it’s the worst possible thing to feel like this fight or flight bodily response and emotional response and mental response 24.7 i am so tired and like lately i’ve been obsessing over thoughts about people having repressed memories and wondering if it’s possible idk i just wish i could relax or at least know why i feel like this so i could understand it and learn control it but i have no idea what my triggers even are it’s just a constanr state of being

Hi all. Just wondering, I guess it's anxiety, who of you have experienced just a sudden feeling of fear for no apparent reason, like this uneasy feeling like you're scared but there's no reason and then your mind starts racing and searches for why you feel like this and all kind of bizzare stuff pops up. ?

Ok so I’ve been kind of upset about this all day so I figured I would share this. I’m really nervous doing it because I don’t want to get judged for it. I feel so guilty about it all the time. So a couple of years ago I was babysitting a family friends kid, and they were crawling all over me, jumping up and down, and I wound up having a groinal response (I really don’t wanna say the kind.) I kind of put it in the back of my mind and forgot about it, but around last year I remembered and latched onto it and it threw me into my OCD spiral. I remembered this happened maybe two other times before that, and of course I felt weird and guilty by it. I didn’t experience any sexual arousal, yet this happened to me. I always had sexually intrusive thoughts ever since I was a little kid, so perhaps I was just having a groinal response to when that was happening because I was thinking “omg what if...” or whatever, but of course I can’t remember my thoughts. Now I know what a groinal response is and that they come in all shapes and sizes (lol) but because this happened *before* I realized I had POCD, my brain has convinced me that it was some kind of genuine attraction and that I wanted to do something bad

Why do people say “you used to be able to do it in the past”, “you need to work with your social workers”, “you have to try harder”, “you have to fight” when in fact that’s ALL I’ve been doing. Why do people f*****g think this is how I want to live. That I chose this. The past defines who I am now. Yet disregard that but tell me I was once able to do things. I’m so sick and tired. Mental health industry is greedy. Insurance is greedy. Yet other conditions are covered. I’m getting told “screw you” from left and right, nothing is affordable as they claim and the only thing I can get is a bandaid for my symptoms. And they say I need to keep living to keep suffering. This world is B******t!!! Try self ERP? I’ve done it. I’ve been trying but there are lots of questions because it’s not a cookie cutter!

Not looking for reassurance, but has anybody ‘overcome’ false memory OCD? I have been working at it and the thoughts have become a lot less powerful and intrusive over a week (the memories are terrible) I am just worried they won’t let me be happy again in the long term. That I’ll always feel like a bad person Not needing reassurance, just wanting to hear anybody’s stories?

This is kinda off the topic of hocd but whenever I get into some of my bad phases with hocd I’ve always turned to porn. And even before hocd, porn was a regular thing for me. But even as of know I watch porn 2-3 times a day (which includes master-bating). So I thought to my self am I becoming addicted? Now I’m looking up stuff on porn addiction and all this other crap and I got the same anxiety when I first got my hocd. But my point is if I was to quit porn, can I ever watch porn again? how am I supposed to cope with my hocd? Is it gay now that I stopped looking at heterosexual porn? Just a little advice would help.

Feel like I'm stuck In a trap with my harm OCD, I've just moved in with a friend and now the thoughts are centered on him. Im looking for a new job but I don't know how I'm going to do it as I'm just constantly anxious and bombarded by intrusive thoughts. I don't even know who I am anymore

Kinda new to the whole OCD thing, well at least of this severity. I started having intrusive thoughts a few weeks ago, and i don’t know what to do. I’m terrified that I’m turning into a sociopath and might hurt people

Harm OCD - intrusive thoughts help pls!! I’m on to a new obsession at the moment with harm ocd which is children related. I’m having similar intrusive thoughts people with children might have (fear of harming their kid) but because I don’t have children yet, it’s the fear that I will harm my own children when I eventually have them :( Does anyone else find it hard to differentiate what is general irritable with children when they’re being loud or something and what’s OCD? Like I feel like I’m gonna get really angry at a kid or something and do something crazy and it scares me so much but then it also feels like I actually want to do that to a child eventually, like I have some sort of plan :( Pls help, I’m not asking for reassurance but this obsession is really new to me. Coping mechanisms?

The thoughts are incredibly real at the moment. Thoughts that come into my mind include a vivid "You are gay, just accept it." The pressure is too much. It feels like my brain is being mushed and flattened I've reached yet another low and I'm here praying that these thoughts will stop bullying me and controlling my life.

Does anyone else with ROCD have the compulsion to tell their partner every single thing they think they’ve done wrong and if not they think they will betray their partner of some sort? And if so, how do you deal with this? I don’t want to keep confessing to my boyfriend all these silly things that aren’t silly to my ocd and make me feel guilty x

I have very long red hair that I am proud of and feel like it defines me quite a bit; I am also a compulsive picker. I pick my lips, skin, and bite my cheeks. Several months ago I started picking at my scalp and it got worse. I have been to the dermatologist. I have been under massive stress since last year (divorce, death of mom, etc) and had no appetite so I ate very little after depression which also affected hair loss. I have added anxiety over losing my hair but I cannot stop picking and eating bits of my scalp. Specific solutions or personal experiences would be appreciated.

Ugh. A bowl broke inside my dishwasher, I found two pieces that fit perfect but missing one small piece. Checked the drain filter thing and all over with a flash light. Panicking thinking we (my child and I) ate off of other dishes that perhaps have shards of glass. They look okay. Took every ounce of me to put food into a bowl today without feeling I was endangering us ? going to be even harder to use the dishwasher not knowing where the piece is...