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PMS and OCD SUCKS TOGETHER. I’ve been doing so well since getting my treatment here on NOCD. I feel like I’m literally on the road to recovery. However, when I’m pmsing/on my period, it just likes to try and get the best of me. I’m still doing my doing my ERP therapies, but my hormones get all out of wack and the OCD loves to try to sneak in again. 😞

This is half a vent session, half me asking for advice but: My OCD symptoms started on april 2020, one month after the pandemic. that has led me to constantly question whether it’s OCD or anxiety and of course i can’t really diagnose myself but it behaves very differently from anxiety. i’ve also been doing research and reading about OCD for over a year and i honestly honestly think i have OCD because i fit basically all the symptoms? anyways, I finally brought it up to my therapist a few appointments ago and i felt like they kind of dismissed me? not sure if that’s normal. they told me it’s could be because of heightened anxiety and to practice “thought stopping”. that has made me feel sooo bad about myself because i start spiraling and believing my intrusive thoughts MUST be true because of what they said, and because it makes me feel like I’m just using the OCD label for “attention”. i’m not sure if i should bring it up again in a future appointment? or maybe find a new therapist? or maybe I don’t have OCD at all? I don’t know what to do

I wanted to ask if there are some pocd stories I can read somewhere? I want to see if I can relate to others.

So I’ve been a bit stressed on top of my regular ocd (Hocd, mild rocd). My libido seems to just be worse than ever and I never want to do anything intimate with my partner and I’m not doing it as avoidance either. It’s just that I’m not in the mood AT ALL. It makes me super super sad, and feel very sorry for my boyfriend. Then by not being in the mood/wanting to have sex I then get intrusive thoughts about my thoughts “all being true.” That’s the least of my worries, but how do I just get over this? Like I said I’m not doing it as a form of avoidance for ocd, it’s just that I have no libido and wish I did so I can enjoy time with my bf. Any advice?? I miss wanting to be intimate with him.

i just want someone to talk to on here but i’m having no luck. this app has been so comforting when i needed it the most and i am really having a hard time right now. every time i share an intimate moment with my boyfriend, even though i know i enjoy it and feel happy and in love, all of that goes always when i call myself gay after it happens. i feel so unlike myself because of these thoughts because i can no longer enjoy these small moments with my boyfriend without what feels like me purposely calling myself gay. i don’t know what our conscious is supposed to sound like, but whatever the voice is that is calling me is far from it. i get filled with anxiety and fear that i could just be in denial and lying to the boy i love, but my heart and soul and mind don’t match up. since the thoughts have gotten worse, i have been listening more to my heart and seeing how i feel deep in my soul, and i know that i was meant to be with men romantically. i am not opposed to being with women romantically at all; i think women are absolutely stunning and when they are great people, it just makes them more attractive to me, but i still don’t feel like i was meant to be with one long term the way that i feel i am supposed to be with men. sorry for this long post, i just feel better writing these things down because it helps me understand better what i am actually going through and helps me collects my thoughts better.

there was someone saying they were suicidal and deleted their post. please reply don't go

Is anyone here refusing to see a therapist because they’re afraid their fears will turn out to be true ?

One of my friends has become so draining, I don’t know how to politely stop speaking to her. I don’t really have the energy to deal with that situation so I’d rather just put up with her here and there for summer classes but I just wanted to vent about how draining she’s become. She’s so pessimistic it’s too much

Childhood guilt and anxiety Im scared i experienced sexual attraction towards other girls when i was a little girl but grew out of it….i never questioned as a child whether i was lesbian or bi even though i knew what it was. And the last time i remember feeling that was like 9 and it was when i watched my girl friend changed. After that i was so uncomfortable at the thought of naked people. (I was also being sexually assaulted the years prior) And i only ever had romantic crushes on boys and saw them as romantic interests. Im so scared im a lesbian….im so scared. I feel like i am and am just realizing:(

Does anyone have ocd where it feels like the thoughts are telling you to act on intrusive thoughts because you could of acted on them in the past and should of been stronger etc? Really struggling with this! They are starting to convince me I’m stuck and feel so hopeless.

i'm not sure if i'll be here in the end of this year. i can't do this anymore i'm fighting but i'm tired

Hi, I'm writing here after reading lots o post about HOCD. I've been suffering from this for a long time (3 years more or less). It all started one day when an image of me kissing my best friend came to me suddenly. Then I started rumiating about that, also I started to look back to my childhood to look signals. 3 years ago it wasn't that convincing. (I also experienced the fear of hurting my family). But now that I have a girlfriend that I love so much (I had HOCD also),I can't take it anymore, when I see a male that seems handsome I feel like something in my gut and a feeling of blushing, I was so afraid at first but now I'm tired. I want to be who I was, I want to feel attraction again for girls and live a life full of joy. Sometimes I thought of ending everything in life to be at peace but I think that's the worst thing I could do. I don't know how to figure out who am I, sometimes I dont know what I like. I used to spend hours and hours researching on Google, reading posts on Instagram about OCD and why it's so convincing. I watch pics about males and I do not get turned on but sometimes I feel like I want that and I think I do not. Please someone can relate ? Thanks for reading.

i haven't been doing super well, but it's still not as bad. makes me wonder if what i am going through is even hocd. i truly feel like i am a lesbian in denial and it has taken its toll on me, but i am still not suffering as much as before, or not anxious as much as expected. makes me think that i may not even have ocd and it's just denial. please help :(

Hi, everyone- Executive function deficits are becoming a real issue for me and I’m looking for information on how to deal with them. I consider myself to be in remission from my OCD but I can’t seem to get anything done. It feels like I’m just spinning my wheels at work and around the house. For a while I though I might have adhd in addition to OCD but the research seems to show that the two rarely occur together. They are really causing me issues at work and I don’t even know where to begin looking for help.

Good morning and happy Monday, yea things aren't perfect and ocd is still there but today is another opportunity to stand up to it and starve the monster! Brothers and sisters, we are in this together! Do not be afraid!

has anyone ever had hocd and turned out to be gay? i feel in denial, i feel like i am one of those few who come out as gay at the end of hocd, and i fear i am not letting myself be attracted to girls because i am in denial and living a lie has anyone ever gotten to this extreme??

Anyone here with religious ocd. I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts . Feels as I’m slowing losing my mind..

I sure hate how when I’m in a deep hole, every attractive woman that comes up on my screen I don’t feel anything, but every man that comes up, my mind is telling me that’s what I want (I’m a straight man, and you would never know this was the case based off of who gets me physically aroused) But, throw in the groinals and the concern that you’ll become actually aroused by the orientation you’re not attracted to, and it’s crippling and your confidence feels so low.

Ok I'm not sure but I think I am experiencing an ocd spiral and it's been going a few days what are some good coping mechanisms or exercises I can do?

anyone else feel like whenever they're starting to heal/get better and the anxiety starts subsiding, all of what they were going through was fake and a lie, whick makes it seem like denial? because like at least back when i had extreme anxiety and always felt nauseous, i knew for sure i didn't want that but now i am so confused and it all seems so real and that my hocd was a big lie and a cover up for my denial