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Does ocd put these types of thoughts in your head about anyone that’s even remotely attractive… stuff like “they look good or would look good naked” and puts images there of them people like I don’t want to think this stuff it makes me feel actually disgusting. Especially when it’s saying it about people from my past I don’t want to think this stuff at all. I hate this illness. How am I meant to ignore these thoughts I feel horrible I love my boyfriend so much

Anymore. Does it mean it’s not ocd? I’m just frustrated. Those thoughts are different from who I was, but I’m not feeling like myself anymore. Anyway it should pass, but it’s so so so hard. I feel like I survive everyday. 😭

Sometimes after I’ve done something „risky“ on my phone or something that makes me uncomfortable or leaves me insecure, I go on this app here to read/like/comment. This might be a compulsion.

I've been living with OCD for over a decade now. I've tried various methods, seen therapists for several years (and still am), started taking medication in the recent months, and turned to Christianity, hoping to harness the power of religion to aid myself. I've tried all sorts of approaches. What I want to say is that many times, I've felt these methods were helpful, especially since I began taking medication in the past few months. However, I still experience lapses every so often, like in the last four days where I've spent most of my days ruminating. I'm feeling quite down at the moment. Previously, during lapses, I would remind myself to look on the bright side and live in the moment, starting self-care right from the now. But having it continue for four days straight, I've really started to lose some of my confidence. I wonder why, despite doing so much, I still experience such severe lapses. And now, I find myself somewhat unwilling to come out of it. I hope you all can offer me some words of encouragement. Thank you!

My obsession is so obscure and specific and I’m sure no one else has it bc every time I Google it no one relates so it’s making me think that it’s not an obsession and I’ll never overcome it. I just wish I could go back in time when I didn’t have this obsession

Is NOCD super expensive? I told my dad I really need some help and he offered to help me find online therapy. I have looked at betterhelp a little bit nervous they can’t help me, has anyone used them? Any other recommendations. I have no diagnosis of anything and never been to a therapist so I don’t even know if this is actually OCD that I’m dealing with. I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts and images, ruminating a lot on the past and worried I was a really bad person in my teens without realizing. I don’t know where to go to find help, my father is paying so I don’t want his money to be wasted and I have no idea what to do.

I have intrusive urges and thoughts come into my head how do stop them ? Or accept them ? 🙏

So I've been doing a lot of introspection in order to FastTrack my recovery for OCD. I am now finally able to share to you guys what I came up with, and I know this is gonna help a lot of people on this forum if you take this seriously. Its called the AUL principle. To remember this better, think of someone from the American south pronouncing the word "All" Here's how it works by letter: Awareness: become totally aware of your intrusive thoughts. DO NOT try to hide the intrusive thoughts through compulsions and reassurance. This is obviously the hardest step because the thoughts are so vile, heartless, destructive that we just want to turn away and run from them. But don't, confront the fears. Uncertainty: live with the fact that you don't know what is going to happen to you. For example, if you worry that someone is gonna hurt you if you go to the store, think "maybe I will get hurt" "maybe I won't" live with the fact that we don't know what is going to happen to use every second of our lives. Lack of caring: after completing the first two examples, your brain should simmer down and you can live on with your life without obsessing. This will take a lot of practice and mental fortitude, as well as a support group of people who know not to ressassure you, which will bring back the OCD. I myself didn't want to change my behaviors because everyone in my life treated me like absolute garbage or was being way to reassuring. It was not until I was court ordered a therapist who wasn't either of those things I wanted to improve myself This is a better way of thinking about ERP at least in my mind. Hope this helps someone

I recently discovered that I have maladaptive daydreaming disorder which is common for people who have OCD. I was diagnosed with Pure OCD six years ago but I felt that there was something different about my condition. My compulsions were daydreams and fantasizing about changing past events. I would do this on a loop and this behavior could last for hours. Has anyone else discovered this about themselves?

I've been shutting myself away lately because I'm so fu^king sick of this cycle of me turning into a g0ddamned baby and then hysterically crying for hours on end and having my family helplessly watch and not know how to help. Nobody knows how to help. I don't even know what I need. I want to give up and just stare at the wall until somebody can save me. If my brain isn't constantly distracted and numbed I'm spiraling. I switch minute to minute from being super depressed to hyper and talkative yet somehow I manage to hold it all inside. It's getting very hard to communicate/mask. Every night I feel fine. I feel scared and sad, but I feel the most normal at this time. When I wake up, it starts all over again. I wake up in panic attack mode and drag myself to work. I swear to god I can't help myself anymore. Nothing I do helps and it's too exhausting. I think I'm just gonna keep letting myself suffer because I'm so sick of trying to get help and then have it not help. I know this is just an episode but jesus christ it's so f^cking scary. I believe everything my brain tells me but I don't even know what it's telling me. All I know is there's this extreme PUSH to be flooded with extreme sadness and anxiety, and it's very REAL. I feel like I need to be locked up and studied. I truly feel alone in this condition because I genuinely believe there is no one in this world who has been having these symptoms the way I do. Four years of this, several mental health professionals, and I still don't have an answer. When will I be able to rest? Even reading this message makes me think "that's not me. where did I go?" There's not even a specific reason why i'm feeling so extremely horrible. It starts as a pure OCD attack about something and then before I know it I spend a week crying. Anyway I have work in the morning I don't know how I keep going and getting out of bed every day knowing that ending up like this is definitely a possibility. I really don't know how I'm still alive. Something is extremely wrong with me and no one seems to understand just how bad it is. What do I need to do in order to get someone to understand the severity of it all? I wish nothing but healing and peace and permanent remission for all of you tough souls ❤️

I disclosed my disgusting intrusive images to my husband and he's used it against me. We've been fighting and if we get divorced I'm afraid he's going to tell people. If people knew they would be horrified and I would lose all the people in my life. I shouldn't have told him. I'm so scared and angry at myself that I told him.

So I was recently diagnosed with ocd and I have always been told since I was little that I have ocd tendencies but I worry that I am not ocd enough. Like what if I don’t have enough like things to address. Sometimes I worry that I’m faking it but I can’t tell the difference between what’s fake and what real

does anyone here suffer from both ocd and social anxiety? my ocd has been getting worse and i’ve recently realized that i also have social anxiety in new groups of people. my anxiety is so intense it drives me crazy. i wasn’t always like this. when i was a kid i used to be very confident and had a lot of friends. i always subconsciously shame myself for feeling this way and even though my ocd just let go of the last theme it had, my social anxiety has been making me even more miserable. social anxiety just seems to be such a loser disorder like «ooh i’m insecure and anxious and i’m afraid people will judge me» it makes me hate myself and i haven’t felt this way in a long time

My ocd is making me think I actually want to commit these hanus acts and I’m scared it’s something I actually want to do but I don’t want to do it and I’d never let myself

I’m really pushing myself to do exposures on my own and though I know logically it’s the right thing to do it’s so incredibly hard. I’ve overcome so many triggers and I know this is possible but it’s taking everything in me not to give into compulsions. Every second ocd is trying to grab me and lead me down the rabbit hole and it’s an exhausting fight. Just looking for words of encouragement ❤️

I am recovering from a pretty intense relapse with my OCD and it’s left me with different desires for my future. I have always wanted a family, but I am so deeply afraid of relapsing when I am married or have kids. I can’t even take care of myself when I’m like that much less children or hold a job. I’m afraid if it comes back I’ll ruin everything I’ve worked for and ever wanted. It petrifies me that it comes with out warning. I don’t want to get close to people in fear they will catch me at a time as such

My husband thinks he knows so much about OCD, like he’s an expert or something. I really struggle with confessing things with OCD, but any time I go to talk to my husband about something that actually happened and is not just a false memory, he doesn’t let me talk to him about it, but I just need him to know what happened. Of course, I know that I am probably blowing the thing that happened out of proportion, but how do I navigate this? He won’t let me talk to him about anything related to OCD really because he thinks I’m constantly “confessing” things to him.

anyone else get nervous to “look too deeply” into themselves bc of the intrusive thoughts and lies that arise from ocd? when i analyze myself too deeply ocd will tell me that i’m something i’m not

I’m exhausted and feel alone with my ocd. I’ve had it for 17 years and still feel like I need to beat it but I’m never going to get to that point and then if I’m starting to get better it feels unsettling. Can anyone relate? 💜

If I think all things done wrong are personal failures for erp are they going to make me do personal failures?