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I feel so desperate. I know it is a compulsion to post and repeating my feelings but I feel like I can't move on. Mpst of the fays I feel scared and numb being afraid of ocd attack and it feels like hell. If I feel ok for a few hours then ocd hits me again even worse, very hard. I feel like being hit by a weapon and I can't stop being hurt. I suffer and cry for hours. In the end I feel i have no hope and future also guilty for spending my life like this. Why do we have to suffer this way???

How do you guys know for certain that you arent in denial of your sexuality? I even hate thinking it could be hocd but i just dont feel sure in anything i do anymore. I dont feel attracted to guys like how i use to and it’s scary because my sex drive is completely depleted.

Does anyone have experience with binge/compulsive eating? If so, can you tell me a little bit about your experience with it and what causes it? I haven't seen this type of compulsion mentioned in the app...

So since starting meds, my OCD symptoms have gone down a good 60-70%. I take Lamictal which has helped a ton on its own, but once I added in Concerta for my ADHD and Clonidine for ADHD/OCD/anxiety, it really just solidified things. I feel like I can genuinely relax.

Any successful/positive stories in regards to ERP for SO-OCD?

is there someone i can talk to i want to try and explain something, like how i feel?

i haven't ruminated in so long. why am i not able to ruminate??? do i not have ocd??

is being highly irritated by anything during a somewhat mild ocd episode normal??? like music, people talking, just any sounds overall?

How to exactly do exposures? I’m feeling anxious right now and have no clue what to do. My friend is texting me about a double date we are having and I don’t know what to do since I’m not acting very excited as the rest of us are and i fear that I’ll actually start believing my thoughts if I don’t do something to stop it

Does anyone find that before their period their ocd gets worse? Any one know how to help this?

I am getting better after a relapse of my intrusive thought's. Sometimes they can take hold of your mind and lock you down at times.

i want to ruminate but then whenever i get the urge to do so it's like it has become "boring" for me and i feel the urge to stand up and go do something else instead of sitting and ruminating. is this a good sign???? or is this not ocd???

i was just watching an explanatory video on YouTube about some subtle clues in the movie "shutter island" and then at the end the video concludes wirh the sentence "we have the ability to deny reality even when it's staring us in the face. we always want to hold on to what we believe is true, even in the face of extreme evidence of the contrary" and i feel like it was meant for me or it "resonated" because i feel like i am in denial and there's a lot of evidence that proves i am in denial. my heart is beating faster and i am breathing faster and my head is dtarting to slightly hurt. is this anxiety? do i feel anxious because i felt called out? i want to ruminate but there's the "sane" part of me who isn't letting me do so. it feels like i am on the verge of spiralling yet i am still completely fine. it feels like i am bouncing back and forth between my two personalities, mentally healthy and ocd, which is why i invalidate myself so much. i feel disturbed yet not as much as i should be if that makes sense?

It’s crazy how I go from one anxious obsession to the next one every few days. There’s always something. And each thing feels like it’s of the utmost importance. But when think about these past concerns; nearly all of them don’t seem that big of a deal in retrospect. Either the bad thing I was worried about didn’t happen, or things worked out in a surprisingly different way, or it just doesn’t feel like that big of a deal without all that extra anxiety attached to it. But it’s just crazy how the current concern can feel so important in the moment.

We need more positivity on this board. I’m done reading all the why me, hopeless, my life is over posts. All that does is bring you and others down further. I know it sounds harsh but this is a condition we must learn to manage. It’s not going to get better if we fear our symptoms and wine about them. I have an idea to help give a positive outlook for those of us who are struggling. Let’s post our most effective strategies we use to manage our ocd. I’ll go first. In times when my fear is most intense I tell myself that I love myself. The thoughts, my actions, everything about myself and it greatly helps calm me down.

When your ocd tells you you’re unworthy of God’s love

I really need to stop trying to figure things out in the morning. I get super anxious most mornings and then it feeds into it if I start ruminating on things I’m concerned about. I think I need to tell myself that mornings are off limits for trying to figure these things out. Usually after a few hours I start to settle down. Then maybe I can think a little more clearly about my concerns; if they are still worth thinking about. One thing that helps a little is having a bite or two of a protein bar right after I wake up. I think it settles my stomach. Any other tips for what to do when I wake up buzzing with anxiety?

I don't know if this is ocd related but I feel alot of guilt for having a good life. like I think about people that live in say Afghanistan.

i had a what i think was an intrusive thought. i really hope it was and that it wasnt me

Am I doing this exposure thing right? This is my road to recovery. I had mild ROCD and when it started getting bad I decided to try my best to recover ASAP because I don’t want to live trike this. Every time I have a thought, I consciously repeat it in my head in the “so what if that’s true?” way. Every time I have an uncomfortable feeling I tell myself “Sit with this feeling.” And every time I am about to do a compulsion I refrain from doing it (Such as today, I had a thought “why do you want to stay with your partner” and I rushed to think of a reason/excuse but then halted myself and just let the question/thought hang there without thinking up an answer. I feel a bit anxious like what if it’s a toxic reason or what if I don’t actually wanna stay with him, but I’m trying not to let it bother me.) the thing is, I feel much better after doing this. Immediately. After I say these “good” things in my mind I feel fine afterwards and it’s suspicious because shouldn’t I be uncomfortable rn? What if I’m subconsciously doing a compulsion and that’s why I feel better? I don’t know if this is good or not and I have no idea what I’m doing😅

Has anyone been on Luvox (Fluvoxamine)? I’m just looking for personal experiences to reference. I’ve always struggled with fatigue in my life but recently it has been unbearable. I never thought it was my Fluvoxamine because I’ve always struggled with fatigue. But now I’m wondering if the medicine is making it worse? Has anyone experienced this? I even got blood work done to check thyroid, vitamin levels, lupus, etc. and it came back normal. I’m wondering if I should ask my doctor about a decrease in dosage….

Contamination ocd with mold.. found some white spots inside a helmet. Now I think everything I touched after that is contaminated with spores. Me and my family might get respiratory diseases and die. Is the ERP to just try to accept that this could happen?

Are anyone else's intrusive thoughts so constant that you don't even think of them as intrusive thoughts anymore, rather it just now seems like the truth?

i have been awake for 2 hours and still haven't had any thoughts. is this not ocd???

Hi, does anyone else get intrusive thoughts about loved ones that would be harmful if said out loud but get an uncontrollable urge to say the thing that is on your mind out loud or to that person and a feeling that if I don’t say this thing out loud I’m gonna go crazy and my mind is going to continue going round and round and round??

Good morning everyone!!!! School for me today :) Question of the day: what weather is your favorite? I like thunderstorms. I find them calming.

Why is my brain trying to make Me feel I wouldn’t regret doing it

I need help, i'm currently suffering from partner focused Rocd. I was able to overcome 5 other ocd subtypes but this one i just can't seem to get it right. I'm going to start therapy soon because i can no longer do it on my own. But i wanted to know if anybody else on this chat suffers from it or has been able to overcome it?

The only way to recover from OCD is to stop trying to work it out. You will never find certainty, though OCD will convince you it’s just around the corner. The prefrontal cortex at the front of our brain tries to solve problems, the ventral striatum in the mid brain encourages compulsive behaviour.. both of these areas of our brains DO NOT work properly. The only solution is using ERP and possibly medication. Your compulsions will never ever lead you to certainty or recovery

Does anybody be sleeping good and then will wake up in the middle of the night not like eyes open but laying in bed with eyes closed but really not asleep and having the intrusive thoughts coming in left and right? I feel like this is starting to be become the worse part of the day for intrusive thoughts for me.

Does someone also is triggered by modern feminism?

Hey nocd, I live in India. I suffer from severe harm ocd. Nocd therapists aren't available for my country. Can you let us atleast be a part of group discussions?

Does anyone else’s OCD make them want to isolate?

https://youtu.be/Q9yKaI0vLJs watch this...maybe this helpful

so anxious bc i saw a tiktok that said “he isn’t giving you butterflies he’s giving you anxiety you’re probably gay” and now i’m afraid everything i’ve felt for boys is fake BECAUSE i do get anxious when flirting with boys or when they flirt with me and now i’m so scared

sometimes it feels like i will be never become a person what i wanna be in past....my time is ruined

Just did a compulsion and feeling really bad and disgusted about it. Anyone have any advice without reassuring me?

Thank you for being my constant, NOCD app. Amazing to always have a space online to connect with others who understand. Goodnight 💤 Love to the OCD community

I want to talk with someone about my thoughts...and want to know about their thoughts... comment

So i told my parents that i was having trouble with thoughts and fears and that i needed help and i thouggt it was pretty constructive and glad to know that family is strong. And i am fortunate to have a family that is willing to help.

Can ocd make you feel like your agreeing with your thoughts in some way? Or making seem like it’s okay and just letting it be bc I feel guilty for trying not to engage with the thoughts

Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Does anyone else feel like they have stages. Like one stage is constant intrusive thoughts that I can’t get rid of, one stage is crying my eyes out and wishing I’m not what I fear, one stage is thinking that I AM what I fear and feeling guilt, one stage is feeling emotionally numb (me right now)

I told my parents I might have ocd but I don’t want them to find out specifically that I think I have pocd :/ bcuz I don’t know if they’d understand

What is the best way to deal with Existential ocd. I don’t have any physical compulsions but they are mental. I’m having a hard time not mentally checking things not to freak out. I get dpdr as my panic attacks surge.

I just stood up to my head preceptor (I’m going to be a preceptor/TA for a marine science class at my college) for disrespecting me and not appreciating my free help. I was super respectful and she apologized to me, but now I’m ruminating about it…but i also feel good at the same time because she didn’t see it coming and i think it’ll benefit me down the line. I’m letting the guilt come on and it’s actually making it less intense. I consciously know i have nothing to be guilty about so I’m just going to let logic dominate over emotion. That’s what i gotta do from here on out!

I'm freaking out over the fact that i have an online friend all of a sudden. I mean I'm cautious but i am afraid I've said too much or he had bad intentions and i want to look through all of our messages and make sure or do a background check for him or something. I'm anxious about this but i did like talking to this person. Why OCD why? Or am i being rational?

What are examples of compulsions for homosexual ocd

Had a bad compulsion relapse today… I guess I just have to start back over tomorrow. OCD is really hard. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. I’m exhausted from trying to “figure it out” I just want to recover.

I wouldn't wish OCD on my worst enemy and I certainly wish all of you wonderful people didn't have it ❤

Does anyone else feel like they can’t tell the difference anymore between liking someone as a friend vs more than a friend?

Has anyone told someone their intrusive thoughts and then been terrified of what they think of them later?

Anyone else get that "coming out" feeling when your parent is around you? I fucking hate it, it feels so real I'm afraid I'm gonna do it :(

When/if I get better, I want to help people as much as possible

What would compulsions be for hocd

I feel like my “good moments” are just moments when I’m reassured😭😭😭

It feels like i wouldn’t mind having sex with a girl & that im not disgusted by it, but i don’t wanna feel that way / do anything like that Then i feel the opposite with guys😞 This is so confusing

Hello everybody, it’s good to be here. I wanted to share with you how bison face adversity in nature. When a storm comes Bison head into the storm. Rather than waiting out the storm or running away from the storm, the Bison charges into the storm, taking it head-on and running right through it. This has the effect of reducing the amount of exposure to the storm. But as human beings we often don’t do that. We tend to procrastinate and the fear of the big upcoming task gets bigger and more daunting in our heads In taking these obstacles on directly we learn what the Bison knows instinctually— when we address our challenges directly the perceived obstacles are often much less than we imagined. I start my first therapy appointment next week. From what I hear ERP is hard, but I’m excited to go into the storm to start my recovery process.

Any of you all feel like living alone is the best option so you don't end up hurting people close to you? I'm feeling that right now.

I’m stressing about hanging out with people that I had Intrusive thoughts about :/ because I don’t want the thoughts to come back and become worse ahh

I got to a point where when I pray I overthink it too much and now feel like I'm lying to myself. I get so much doubt about if what I believe is real and now I feel like I csnt pray properly. it's been like this for so long.

College starts for me next week and I’m already feeling overwhelmed. I’m hoping this year my OCD won’t take over but I’m worried it will

All I feel is guilt and numbness. I really wanna feel again, life is so dull. The guilt and stress makes it worse. Idk what I can do.

how do i accept the possibility of something horrible happening in the future

Today I realized that my OCD cry’s wolf a lot. In reality, there is rarely a crisis that I have to figure out, research endlessly so I can do something about it. Boy am I grateful to have that insight! I am grateful to be able to say “Ya, ya, thought you can be there. I am not doing battle with you but I am getting on with my day.” ERP has been so good for me. Accepting that my mind sends me faulty warning messages and thoughts has made it much easier to respond appropriately. I am healing! I am living again!

Would Zoloft help ocd

Does anyone else suffer with existential OCD/mental illness OCD? Feeling like the world isn't real or you're stuck in a dream or schizophrenic? Any tips on how to cope?

Does anyone have experience with mood stabilizers.

I’m so stressed. I hate my job. My job is making me exhausted. They are overworking me especially since we are understaffed. Everyone is like you need a new job! And then ocd is like what if it’s just like this at a new job. What if you just don’t want to work? What if you won’t be happy? What if you just lose your mind right here? Because I just feel so overwhelmed and like it’s never going to get better even though I know it will. Ocd keeps trying several tactics to stay around. I’m slowly getting over my contamination/fear of being drugged ocd. And now it’s slipping into existential waters. Which honestly makes me feel even more hopeless

Goodnight everyone! I’m going to bed super early because I have to wake up early 😔 I hope you sleep well and have a fantabulous evening! Just a quick I love you to everyone here. This is the most kind, supportive, non-toxic community I’ve ever been a part of. I know it’s sad for me to be excited to check my notifications for an OCD app, but I genuinely consider everyone on here a friend. Thank you so much!!! 💛

i don’t really like when i’m not freaking out about the thoughts or when it feels like the thoughts aren’t there

Who else is scared of going to school now? It’s my second year of college. The first year was me taking it online. Now I have to meet in person and my OCD contamination is not going to go so well meeting new people like this. I don’t know how I will cope considering the fact that I get panic attacks around people. I was also a student who get good grades ahead of the class. Now I understand nothing and not getting the grades I used to get.

my ocd started off irrational now it feels so much more real

Anyone else just deeply think about anything? It doesn't just have to be intrusive thoughts. It's just like "wow, the sky makes me feel this way.." or, "ugh, the wind makes me feel crazy..." Like it's almost like my brain is trying so desperately to just make me feel miserable at all times.

I need some advice. I have a really bad sleeping habit and I just woke up hearing some weird sound. Now I think I’m getting delusional because I woke up with anxiety, I don’t know where the sound was coming from. Now it stopped and my anxiety won’t go away and my OCD is triggered bad. Now I think I’m going crazy and I’m still having anxiety. I don’t know how to calm down. And my brain just keeps thinking about that sound!😟

Starting school tomorrow. Scared of seeing a wide array of girls and falling back into my compulsion of checkin whether or not I’m attracted to them… 😬 Wish me luck. Christians, please pray. I’m getting nervous.

I think one of the huge things that triggers my OCD is seeing all the bad in this world. Something I’m trying to now is really focus on the good. Because yes there is a lot of hate in this world and if I want to be the good I have to focus on the good!

If anyone is looking for a bit of hope right now, I actually feel like things are getting better! It seems like things get better, then I have a bad couple of days, but then after that bad episode things seem to get just that little bit better than before. I feel like I’m slowly starting to see my thoughts for what they really are: literally just irrational thoughts! Just keep holding on guys we can get through this.

I'm scared the thoughts are real. I keep thinking "im lesbian " but I don't mean it bc I don't want to be but I feel like im starting to believe it, and the feeling of "coming out" is making it worse but I don't feel that anxious anymore now it feels like I'm lying and in denial.

Can someone tell me what is happening? Before, I usually got intrusive thoughts and couldn’t push them away and I would feel reassured a lot because I would seek reassurance and that reassurance would last for so long. But now I’m not getting intrusive thoughts anymore, and I can never feel reassured. Can ocd become real, because I feel like it’s becoming real.

Today I opened up to a friend about my OCD and how hard it is then she was like "i feel bad for you but i have many things too". It made me feel like my whole journey with OCD is invalidated.

Any tips on how to help other people with the disorder ?

Hi guys, I was sitting then standing. Then bam anxiety after sitting down because I forgot whatever made me anxious. Now I don’t know what made me anxious. Now I am worried about the anxiety. And now I feel scared and sad! 😞

there's some type of mental block keeping me from ruminating. anyone else felt this before??

i want to ruminate but i feel so tired to do so. it's almost 2:30 am here and when i close my eyes to ruminate i almost fall alseep. this happens to me during the course of the day too. is that why my rumination has gone down???

Is having OCD about some activity make it more possible to happen? For example speaking your thoughts out loud, holding your breath etc.

i wanna join students with ocd group zooms but i feel anxious hdkdjfk is anybody on here in that group ?

i’m so worried that if i hang out with my boyfriend i’m going to think of someone else while i’m with him. is this an intrusive thought?

Funny episode just now: OCD has been pretty bad for a couple of days and today I'm having a normal convo and think, "Hey, I'm not having anxiety" and then I think, "Omg, I'm thinking about this, it consumes my mind" then hahaha I think, "OMG, what IF I want it to really be this way. What IF I want to be anxious so I keep bringing this up " Basically peeps - we gotta let go of the what IFS and remember WHAT IS. And what IS - Is that we are not alone healing IS possible, it IS temporary and we WILL have victory. Blessings and hugs from Ohio!!!!

i’m still on a waitlist for a local therapist. while i wait, do you guys recommend any other resources to help overcome ocd?

Experiences with Wellbutrin? My psychiatrist suggested that I try it on top of Prozac because while the Prozac is helping me mentally, I can’t stop eating. Any input would be great

I’m going to babysit some kids later as ERP :O uggghh wish me luck

Guys, my wife is suffering from contamination OCD since the out break of corona specially as we got our first baby during the epidemic , she can not stop thinking about the matter she keeps washing her hand after everything and wash for like 5 or 10 mins , her hand is got eczematic due to the overuse of the soap , even after vaccine she still afraid . I do not know how can i help her i feel distress as well and sad since i find my self clueless about what i should do ?

Not sure if this is evidence that I stare at people innapropriately or if it’s not . My psychiatrist told me thoughts can’t make you do things and thinking “don’t stare at someone “ won’t make you stare at them and ruin your life . But sometimes I have wtf responses with ocd about seeing people’s butts when they bend or their boobs when they bend . It’s either a checking compulsion that’s automatic or it’s a wtf response . My ocd says this is evidence that staring ocd was an actual problem

Please read!! I am scared of intimacy and commitment due to past trauma. This makes me extra cautious and avoidant of dating and stuff with guys. My mind is telling me I’m lying about that so that I don’t have to come to terms with the fact I’m a lesbian.

i really feel like i am just struggling with my sexuality and with accepting that i like girls :(

anyone with HOCD + Real Event OCD?

I’m having Soocd and rocd for over a year now and I have a boyfriend. He asks me from time to time when I’m very low, what makes me so anxious and sad. I always tell him, that its hard to explain and i would rather not talk about it. I am just so scared that he doesn’t understand how it works and that he thinks i don’t love him and that i am gay in denial. This would cause so much anxiety. Today I answer, when he asked me again, that i can tell him if he wants to, but he needs to show much empathy. So do you think its okay if i tell him or would i ruin things? We‘ve been together for over 3 years and we love each other and he loves me. But i am scared. Do you guys think its ok to talk about rocd and soocd with my boyfriend? Would you?

Today, I had to go to our local feed store to get an E-collar (you know, the cones) for my dog, who is recovering from surgery. I said to the sales help, "I hope she doesn't hate me for this," and she said, "She might." #UnexpectedExposure And you'll be happy to hear that I did not ask for reassurance after that.

Hello all, I recently went to a dietitian and had found out that I was hypoglycemic. For those who don't know; Hypoglycemia is when your bloodsugar drops and it makes you tired, irritable and can in severe cases cause seizures/or make you black out I mention this for a very important reason. Supposedly low blood sugar can affect anxiety and by doing so, affects OCD symptoms which can make them worse than they otherwise would be. When I found this out, a lot of things were making sense, I have been changing up my diet. Trying to eat more often, and I am getting better! I guess what I'm trying to say is. Sometimes the brain can warn you of your physical health and the reason you may have severe OCD, (not always of course) but some of the time could be simply not eating the right things. Eating too much/too little. Eating too much sugar... I am not a doctor and you should always take a mental disorder seriously. But it never hurts to fix your life style a bit before going on meds. You never know what the cause might be. Or at least why your issues might be elevated. Hope this helps somehow, stay safe♡