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Is there anything that you all do that’s not a compulsion or ritual that helps with your OCD and anxiety in the mornings?

This is one of the worst ocd days I’ve ever had. I’ve tried to do exposures, I’ve tried to not reassure myself, I’ve tried to be more social and go to lunch with coworkers, I’ve tried to not do any compulsions and I feel like crap. I keep wondering why I’m not getting better .

I had a thought about a week or so ago and it was “what if cheating is exciting” and “what if I want something more exciting than what I have now” and none of those thoughts are true! Ugh! I don’t want anything differently than my relationship now and I think it’s beyond exciting! I feel so guilty for even having that thought. :( anyone have any advice? I think it’s ROCD but what if it’s not?

im just convinced im an evil person because of my” ocd” and i put it in quotes because ive been diagnosed with it but it feels so real. all my themes are sexual in some way, always having groinal responses, and sometimes it feels like i enjoy these thoughts or want these things to happen. my POCD use to be really bad and now it’s not but im still convinced im some evil p***. the theme has switched from POCD to incest ocd about my mother, due to past trauma. i feel like im stuck this way forever. i can’t even enjoy sexual time by myself anymore without being plagued by these thoughts. i just want to go sleep forever. im only a teenager and i feel like my life is ruined. there are things from my past that i have done that are unusual and or disturbing due to hypersexuality, so that also makes me feel like all in all im just a weirdo. i wish this would stop.

I’ve heard people say the thoughts don’t always come as a what if but can they come in the form of “I want to” “I should..” “they should” “I’m going to” this is the most I’ve ever struggled with harm ocd because of the way the thoughts are presenting and it’s making me think I actually want to do these horrible things that I would never do or think in the past, like ever. My mind is constantly telling me I’m lying to myself and everyone and it’s just a matter of time. Please anyone who’s experienced this and what helped you. I’m so scared to say maybe or yeah ocd you’re right like I would with other intrusive thoughts because these seem so dangerous and dark. I won’t look at people license plates because I’m scared I will follow them home and hurt them 😔 I just don’t want to be this way anymore. I want my mind back.

i’ve been up for 2 and half hours just laying in bed with my eyes closed ruminating, filled with anxiety and anxiety spikes, and just constantly telling myself i’m okay, i’m fine, this is the ocd and unwanted intrusive thoughts. i’m exhausted cause i went to bed and kept waking up in my sleep with anxiety and having to tell myself i’m okay to breathe. i had a really rough day yesterday and i don’t want to have one today. i saw a post that said how do you get rid of the anxiety of anticipating the anxiety, the thoughts, the ocd. i relate to that so much. i hope if you’re reading this you have a good day as well.

Do people prefer self employment or being employed by someone else? I’m in a group for autistic people and they prefer to be their own boss, I wondered if that was the same here.

Is anyone else scared to have children because of their ocd? Because I used to want to have kids before my ocd hit me like a freight train.

I did something bad in December, something I’m trying hard to forget and love last. Something I took responsibility for. Yet people are treating me like I was the only one involved. I was completely water during the entire thing, The guy who was involved, he had a gf and was also driving so how drunk he was we have no idea, yet we still ended up having sex. I took full responsibility, I was drunk I shouldn’t have done it, but he was not as wasted as me so he should’ve said no. He should’ve right?! I messaged the girl, told the guy to tell her as well, I tried to sort it out. But everyone has blamed me entirely. He is getting away with it Scott free. Still with his gf, nobody blames him, all my friends have blamed me. Anyway, I met his best mate that night and we hit it off so well. We’re still talking to this day and he makes me feel so good about myself. We wanna meet again and everything but we live far away from one another. Anyway, I messaged my best mate with a concern, she was a tiny bit blunt about what I was actually concerned about and then started talking about how the whole situation is dangerous (me sleeping with his mate while drunk. I also I wasn’t speaking to him at this point I’d only met him but her point has made me feel like I couldn’t speak to him anymore) and that I should be careful. I’m now sat here like do I need to tell him? That’s kinda his best friends decision no? I don’t have any reason to tell him about a mistake I made in the past. I wasn’t dedicated to him, I was in a seriously bad place, it was a mistake I’d take back in a heartbeat. If that’s something his friend wants to do then fine, but why me? I’ve done everything and this guy I slept with sat there and watched me do it all. This group of girls, I’ve known them for years, but during this entire thing I was fully to blame for everything. Didn’t matter how drunk I was, the situation was treated like I was sober. Even the fact that my friend left me in town alone with this group of lads, was my fault. Drunk alone in town. I was then blamed for letting her go home alone, when I didn’t. Anyway, my point is, I’m feeling so incredibly guilty and all I wanna do is enjoy my time with this guy I really like and forget that what happened ever happened. Just like the guy has done. He’s still with his gf, he’s still enjoying life, yet I’m here feeling like I can’t speak to the guy I’m currently speaking to anymore even though he brings me nothing but joy. Do I have to tell him? It’s not something I feel is relevant. A part of my life I pushed aside has been brought up and now life is getting hard for me once again. I wouldn’t do it again, I don’t wanna bring up my past with him. That’s a part of me I wanna push aside. But people are making me feel like I can’t. am I allowed? Am I the bad guy? Am I the one that doesn’t deserve to be happy? In my head the answers to some are yes. I’m scared you’ll all agree. Idk what to do I just wanna enjoy my time with him and if further down the line it’s brought up explain the situation. I feel horrible my days are hard. Idk what to do

Does anyone fear spreading things to others by using the bathroom? Do you keep needing to wash over and over?

I literally just almost had a full panic attack at the fact that I can think … like I sat there while I was thinking something in my head. and I have ocd where I like to feel even in my body usually and I felt like I couldn’t feel my head or control it .. it just scared me so much.

I have a massive fear of flying. I have a long flight coming up in a month and I’m already panicking about it. Any tips from people who get like this too? I feel like with OCD it’s an added level of anxiety that just makes it so hard

does anyone else feel like they’re simply existing? i cant describe how im feeling. it’s not like i want to die, but i’m just at a crossroads. while i’m so blessed for this life i’ve been given, i find it tough to get ti the end of the day. i just go through periods where i don’t feel like myself. almost like another person inside of my body.

You all inspire me greatly and your constant bravery is so encouraging. I’m newer here. My biggest question is - how have you all that deal with ROCD and have had success in managing it, sift through the differences of ROCD thoughts (which drive self sabotage) vs. legitimate concerns in a relationship or partners behavior? Do you find at times ROCD grabs hold of something small or normal in relationship conflict (like white lies from your partner or defensiveness) and blow it up to larger than life indicators that drive your anxiety/ruminations to be incessant? How do you cope? (I just started ERP)

I’m new to this one here. How do I cope with a fear that is truly real? I posted before that my dog had been diagnosed with heartworms (don’t come at me, he lived outside for over a year on a chain before we rescued him.) but ever since then, we’ve obviously begun treatment and I’m not sleeping. My OCD has been triggered by this and im CERTAIN he’s going to die. Even knowing his odds are very good, I’m still so sure he’ll die and I’m obsessing. Not sleeping. Watching him sleep all night…This is triggering old fears that I haven’t had in a very very long time surrounding children. I’ve struggled with infertility for over a year and we are FINALLY beginning treatment. This trigger has me wondering all over again if I even want to be a mom which is crazy because it’s all I’ve truly ever wanted! Also this fear didn’t creep back in until I was triggered by my dogs diagnosis…I guess I’m wondering how I do ERP around events that could genuinely happen. While my dogs odds are good, there still is a chance he could not make it and I need to get ahold of this anxiety before I spiral.

i told my therapist about erps i could try and do (like her bringing a knife or scissors or a lighter next time i see her) and she thinks it’s a good idea, but now i’m having anxiety about when she actually brings them 😭 i’m scared i might act out on intrusive thoughts and hurt her. is this normal? like is it normal to feel anxious when you know you’re going to do an erp 😭

does anyone else’s ocd get worse during their period too?

If anyone is willing to connect with me on ROCD, I’d greatly appreciate it! Having a tough time.

‼️‼️TW:BULLYING:‼️‼️ I just had a breakdown in front of the whole school I’m so scared I’m hiding in the bathroom rn.I just get bullied non stop bc I’m goth I jus wanna be able to get my fucking work done but with this going on and my mental health problems I can’t.My grades are dropping drastically and my attendance is out of wack.Everyone’s disappointed in me. I keep getting told I’m imagining shit and nothings happening.The counselor even yelled at me today.Everyone’s turning away when I need help but I’m always right there when ppl need me.I jus got out of the mental ward and I’m alr back to the point where I wanna kms.

I’m not sure I have been riding horses since I was a baby. Over the past three years I have been debating if I like riding. My horse has been slipping and it has really been effecting me. All is I question is she is dangerous to ride. Before this happened all I could think about was riding was a chore. It is very hard to differentiate if I really like the horses. I woke up at 5 am worrying about it. I j feel like I don’t want them. It is causing me to fall in a depression and it’s all I think about. Please advice.