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What are some ways to accept uncertainty other than Maybe, maybe not. That just doesn’t work for me

My ocd is obsessing over the death and the fear of it and losing loved ones. I hate itttttttttt. Then I start questioning like why are we out here if we just die some day? And then it all feels so unreal to me when I think about the fact we all die and I hope there is something after death. Just felt like ranting. Wish my brain and ocd had an off switch lol

I recently started liking this girl. She likes me and It feels amazing. I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for a while now and I was scared when I first fell for her because I knew how badly my OCD was. My OCD has flared up so much since and it tells me I don’t like this girl or that I rather be with a guy. A lot of what if questions as well. I would like to know for those in relationships and struggling with Sexual Orientation OCD, how has this affected your relationship. I don’t want to feel alone in all this. I’ve had many themes before this one and OCD is telling me it’s different this time.

Why do I feel so much guilt?! Is this normal with ocd?? I feel so many guilt and idek for what it’s like I feel guilt for even other peoples actions like my family or always wanting to do the right thing and then think back on times when I haven’t Is this common??

Does anyone else's OCD make them think about horrible things all the time. I feel like I'm constantly having horrible intrusive thoughts 24/7 and I can't even sleep without seeing horrible images when I close my eyes. I feel like a monster because their are times where it feels like I like the thoughts even though I'm absolutely appaled by them 24/7 and they literally make me feel nauseous because of the absolute disgust I feel by them. Its just so painful because I'm constantly being attacked in my own mind all the time. Does anyone have good coping mechanisms to deal with this? I just want to be able to have peace in my mind once in awhile

Anyone feel like their keeping secrets, and then feel guilt and think about it they should tell their future kids?! I’m only 23 and don’t even have kids, but I’m worried that I’m going to carry this with me and that I’ll be a bad mom if they don’t know. I feel guilt, and I don’t wanna be a bad mom so I’m googling and stuff to see what propels says but I don’t know if this is also a compulsion? Is this ocd?! Or is this a concern Story short: my family has many secrets and I have found out about a big one recently, and it’s making me feel guilty if I don’t tell my kids in the future even though those are not my actions but I feel guilt :( any advice on how to manage this!!!

Can OCD make you feel like you’re imagining everything ? like “that person wasn’t even real” or “this isn’t happening & your real self is in a hospital rn & you’re imagining everything meanwhile” & also stuff like “life is pointless we are all gonna die so why do this & this & etc.” I can’t even enjoy school or complain about it like a normal teenager bc I’m so convinced it’s fake. Like I cry every. Single. Day. I am stressed every single day. Idk if this is OCD .. idk how to cope with it. How I know my whole life isn’t fake?! is there treatment for this “fake” life imagination. Like idk.

If you can relate, please share, I'm feeling very isolated in this. I feel debilitated by Just Right OCD almost 24/7. I've had this all my life, and it's been very fueled by trauma over time. I don't know how not to do Just Right compulsions, because I've never seen them separate from me, but rather just how I am, how I live. How I do my hair, how I eat, how I write, is with Just Right OCD right up on in there. I've never not had this: I ONLY KNOW LIFE WITH IT, SUCKING UP MY TIME. Between this and executive dysfunction from other disorders, I've only really lived my life to 10% of my potential. It's not like "oh hey this is a new theme external to my identity". It's very isolating, even in this community.

I know. Many of you will not like this post, but bear with me. Everytime i have seen tarot cards, things are always right. Even just before asking the question about ocd, the cards were right. There were cards about peace and harmony, and not to be impulsive, but also about wanting an unspeakable thing, experimenting different things in life i wouldn't have thought of, and relax. Suddenly i feel tensed about my hocd. If someone has used tarot cards and have/had, please reply.

I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.

Im not sure if I get offended or hurt by stupid jokes because I’m super insecure or if it’s actually just a joke. I’ve been really focused on this lately and started a fight w my bf about it. He made a dumb joke about me walking around like a gremlin. I know deep down it was a stupid joke and I don’t think I’d care if I heard it from anyone else. I stewed over it for 30 mins then kinda started a fight about it. I don’t know if it’s valid though cause I know it’s just banter. I also know that I’m super sensitive lately and insecure. So it’s hard like 15 lbs ago I don’t think I would care about this joke. It just added to my insecurity tho

my bf walked away to go surf while we’re at the beach and he left his phone with me. i have the urge to look at it because i keep seeing online how girls are happy in their relationship until they look through their bfs phone. i know it’s wrong to do that and that means i don’t trust him but i’m just worried that i’ll be right. how do i avoid this ?

i keep to find the answer is it true or just false memories. I tried so many ways to find the answer but never find the 100% answer. some point, my friend just introduce some book, the name is “book of answer”. the book is for fun, its like Place one hand on the cover of the book, concentrate on a closed-ended question while stroking the edge of the pages until you sense the right time to open the book. You will find the answers to all your questions within one of pages from this book. and my ocd start play, i really want to asking about things that really disturbing my mind. i start asking did i ever do “X” , and i say God please answer me” and suddenly when I open, i saw “Yes”, ofcourse i get shocked and start thinking its God’s answer. and i keep stressing about this. if I did, why im not remembered. but i cant stop to not find the answer, if i do something, example, when i working, I need to using scaler to weigh the rice 260gr every bowl, and im thinking again, if i can put the rice 1 times on the bowl and exactly 260gr, it means my thinking its true not false memories, and i say again God please give me answer this time, and then EXACTLY 260grm. i really dont know.. if I really OCD, if i really have false memories ocd, why God always answer me “yes” for something that I doubting. even though i have so many the other episode about my false memories ocd, and it never prove I did. but in this case, i really feel i need to admit because God say yes :( anyone can help me? what should i do

I genuinely don’t know if I have OCD. I keep going through all sorts of distressing obsessive cycles but as soon as I start to find some answered to the craziness, the obsessions start to disappear, just reinforcing my doubt. And a lot of my obsessions seem to be “subtypes” that don’t really have a name within the OCD community. For example, as of recently I’ve found myself in an obsessive cycle of doubting and questioning my morals and values. It started with the thoughts of “what makes P-philea wrong” and that thought scared me because why would I question a value that is universal. I began worrying that somehow I might potentially see these behaviours as morally acceptable. And I began questioning my moral values on other things as well. But I don’t know if it’s OCD or if I’m just thinking deeply about why I believe what I believe. Anyone have any similar experiences??

I find most ppl use this forum for reassurance and hope. We all need it, but can’t rely on it. I would love to hear some stories and how they have progressed in their battle with OCD. Feel free to share on this convo.

Who else feels like ocd is disabling to them? Do you feel guilty about it? I just wish other saw and felt how disheartening debilitating it is to have this…I literally cannot go to work sometimes or get out of bed because of this

Started celexa 3 weeks ago. Does anyone find their anxiety and ocd is horrible in the mornings? Then by afternoon it calms down? I don't know if this is due to the medication or if it's just my anxiety about the day.

I got rid of sexual intrusive thoughts obssesions, now HARM OCD cams back and last night I was in the kitchen and I wanted to make sure my HARM OCD is gone for good so I grabbed my cat and I was sitting with her in my arms near that knife, everything good until intrusive thoughts and urges came oit of nowhere and I felt like they were my own thoughts and I feel so sick and I feel like a psycho. Why do I must have this mental issue? I feel so ashamed and I've been crying sincs last night because what if I wanted to hurt my cat? No lover of animals would ever think like that. I think I'm going insane.. It's like I don't know me anymore.. Don't tell me it's my OCD or something like that. What if I'm on the process to become a killer? I don't want that to happen.

I have had OCD for about 20 years and have experienced many themes during this time but I have found the hardest to be the existential theme. This theme started about 3 weeks ago and has centred around the universe. I was driving home listening to some music and a thought went through my mind about the world and gravity etc… this is something I have never really had an interest in, possibly because it caused some anxiety when I was younger but I just cannot shake the thoughts. I have also been experiencing DPDR episodes over the last 3 weeks too which makes the whole situation quite terrifying. I have been put on 50mg Sertraline so I am hoping this will hope and also start ERP Therapy either early September/October (NHS waiting list). I understand it is quite a common theme but it can be absolutely terrifying at times!

I couldn’t sleep last night thinking about my ex. I find comfort and feel better when she looks at my instagram stories. But when she doesn’t, I get anxious and sad. I can’t get out of this funk.