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im isolating from my triggers. i often avoid meeting ppl, making frnds cause ik they wud be my trigger in one way or the other. sometimes i feel lonely but at the same time, i cant meet ppl. im really hopeless and gloomy. any kind words wud be appreciated.

why is it that every time i love someone (platonic or romantic) that the things they do that are needs or make them happy just bother me to no end. like once i get to the place where i love them if they, for example, eat food- i loathe every second- i can’t hear them chewing, or them talking about the food, or whatever, i actually start to hate the food and feel sick to my stomach. what is this? i get so fixated and obsessed with stopping them from doing what they’re doing that i will sometimes get tunnel vision and have to leave. this is so difficult when someone you love is showing you things- a new song, book, whatever. i have no words to put it logically and most of the time i can do my best to describe what’s going on in my head when necessary but with this it’s just so irrational and feels like a decision to just act annoyed about nothing. can anyone relate or have advice? it’s starting to feel more and more impossible to be in a happy relationship with this shit going on.

I’ve been debating medication for 3 years. I was wondering about other peoples experiences bc I don’t know many people with OCD. Or what types of medications have helped or if they even have? Can someone please give me some insight. The thoughts are extremely annoying and feel very REAL and uncomfortable. It makes me think everyday something I think can become true or I want it to be true. Any insight please?

Hi all! I've more or less gone through this theme in its entirety. That said, I'd like to reflect on what I went through, if that helps anybody going through this theme. When this theme started with me, I was going through a high period of stress. I don't remember the exact trigger, but that doesn't matter too much. What does matter is it sent me on a loop - questioning whether I was a transgender woman, looking for reassurance, getting temporary relief, then going back to the start. At many points, I fully believed I was a trans woman, after being fully engulfed by your OCD theme, the truth becomes foggy. That in mind, I had a few helpful resources on my recovery. One of the more helpful resources I had with this theme were the people on Nocd. To me, the people I chatted with (before I deleted my account) were a boost to my support system. Sharing experiences reminded me that I wasn't entirely alone on the journey to recovery. Working on my exposures also helped me out tremendously. As I got more comfortable with the uncertainty, I was able to move forward. And trust me, some of my exposures were very unpleasant. With that in mind, ya'll got this! It might seem hard now, but it does get better. Or, more accurately, you get better at responding to the uncertainty.

Hi I’m new to the group here and I look forward to getting into therapy here as I believe this is OCD again cuz I can’t stop obsessing & thinking the same thing over and over again. Let me back up a bit cuz I have been having these horrible thoughts & feelings for over a month now. So Since my dog has died at the end of October I’ve been having horrible feelings that I’m going to die at the end of the year… I’m so scared and worried. I feel like I have so much to accomplish and do in life, but my brains telling me I’ll be dead by for sure by the end of this year, like i don’t want to die. Like is this OCD or something else? I want to hear if any of you guys have suffered with something similar. I don’t want to die now! I have never had obsessive thoughts about this before so it feels so real and scary. But I’m so anxious constantly, I have barely eaten much, and just feeling so disturbed by my thoughts I can’t focus or do anything it feels! 😞 So obviously I made it past the last two nights cuz I have been having consistent thoughts thinking I was going to die by Friday the 15th, but here I am still alive!… but last night I really screwed myself when I gave into searching up more of “why am I still thinking I’m going to die, etc etc” I went to Qurora where people put there thoughts & opinions on a certain question. A certain word really stuck with me and I searched it up, it was “premonition” I started researching what is the difference between horrible anxiety & premonition and I started reading articles… since last night it’s been freaking me out!!! Like what if this is a true premonition feeling compared to me just having anxiety? 😥 There was some people who posted in the comments on quora saying “I knew something bad was going to happen, etc etc and it did, or I had a feeling my dad was going to die and a few months later he did, etc etc…”. I’m constantly thinking I’m gonna die for sure now… it’s gut wrenching to think this. I know we all die but I don’t want to die now. It wouldn’t make sense for me to die now, I have a little 3 year old boy I wanna be here for the rest of my life! I’m a single mom, I don’t want him to be without any parents. Ugh I’m so sad, anxious, on edge I can’t function. I can’t stop crying sometimes. I have therapy this week but it’s gotten so bad where now I feel like I CANT distinguish the difference between a gut feeling and just my thoughts as intrusive/OCD. Can anyone of you really relate to this?? I just wanna feel at peace again with myself…. And I certainly don’t wanna die young. 😭 But also my thoughts have switched up on me like “well you lived past this Friday, but you’re for sure gonna die in the next few weeks etc etc.” like a gut thought. There’s moments I feel like I need to go to a mental hospital cuz idk anymore…

Today and yesterday were some of my hardest days in recent memory. I had therapy today and I’m not sure if it made things better or worse. Today I’m struggling with what is and isn’t ocd. Im also exhausted because I got a terrible nights sleep last night from anxiety, and Im sure the compounded exhaustion is making it all worse. I would love if anyone could share what they did today, whether it be good or bad because I love finding support and comfort within this community. Hope y’all are doing better.

I feel like my intrusive thoughts are worst than most.😔 I am ashamed and alarmed by them. I know they’re just thoughts. My OCD will come up with the most taboo, disgusting, and worst things that could happen and put the words “I want” in front of it. Not what if xyz happens, but “I want” xyz to happen. Obviously I don’t want those things to happen. It makes me feel like the worst. Does anyone else’s OCD use the words “I want” to inflict even more guilt and shame?

I’m seriously considering taking lexapro. I’m having a hard time right now. But I’m curious if anyone has gotten into recovery without medication. Anyone with depression disorder and ocd. And not need medication?

My bf is agnostic, I am a believer/christian. Obsessing about the fact that if we get married, who knows if it will work out? Do I need to worry about this now? I don’t want to break up but maybe we should?

What's the best way you learned to stop obsessing and ruminating over things going "wrong"? It usually happens when I have a lot of time on my hands. Any realistic or unrealistic, logical or illogical thinking can happen during these times & I'm just reaching out for support. What's the best advice you've ever received, dealing with OCD?

Starting my OCD journey tomorrow with NOCD. I’m so ready to get tips and tricks and send this OCD Flying out of the park! Anyone with suicidal OCD that’s newly starting and want to chat?

In this camp we Will be 3 girls and 4 boys, thing is, that i don't know who ti spend more time with.. like, i don't want to be near girls because i don't want to fall in love and be gay, but at the dame time, i don't want to just spend time with the boys because i have my boyfriend, i love him and i don't want to do something that might hurt him... :( i'm worry i may be gay because i have not been feeling anxious about them thoughts and they feel as if they were mine..

Does sexual orientation feel like you in the closet?

I feel like I’m a bad person

When I get really stressed I obsessed about that I never vill sleep again. I'm so fucking tired of it. It's hard because I have a lot of autoimmune diseases so logically I also know that I need sleep. Which making it worse because that tells OCD that I'm right. I do all the classics things, telling my self that I can go one night without sleep, that I can cancel the important thing tomorrow etc. But it doesn't not help. It makes it worse. It's not about sleep it's about me worrying about a lot of real stuff I don't want to think about so I think about that I will never sleep again. Any ideas? I know I will feel stressed and it will be a lot for me to handle tonight. But I don't want to give in to my compulsions. That's all. I want to take the fight. I just needed to tell some one and know I'm not alone. I've done it before with OCD so I know I can do it. It's just so hard when it's all in my head.

Everyday I spend my whole day convincing myself I would never hurt anyone. I run through all the reasons I never would I don’t have a history of any harm, I love all the people I’ve thought “what ifs” about with my whole heart. Constantly begging god to show me a sign that promises everything will be okay. I’m exhausted I feel so scared of myself everyday. I’ve thought these things with most everyone but I stay home with my little girl and that’s where the life shattering fear comes in. I’m just tired

I don't think I experience intrusive thoughs anymore, just the constant feeling that my fear it's true, every though I have doesn't seem egodistonic, I just react like it's the truth, and I don't want it to be but it's not like I have a choice

i read some things about ocd and the different types of it and symptoms and I can honestly relate to them (im not trying to diagnose myself with ocd but I think I have a type of ocd) lemme explain: so like this been happening since the summer. me and my best friend did something sexually together and me and her afterwards wasn’t okay after that and she told me how she felt afterwards and after that I felt totally disgusted and sick about myself and that’s when all the intrusive thoughts started. I keep having the urge to kill myself everyday I keep thinking about death and it’s getting to the point that I can’t eat because after I eat something I immediately think I’m gonna die because I ate something. When I’m at school or in public I have bad anxiety and thoughts about me dying. And after the situation happened with my friend (I’m Christian) I just feel like God is so disappointed in me because what I did. Nobody knows this situation. Nobody knows what’s REALLY going on with me. Im trying to stay strong but it’s getting really hard to im at my breaking point the thoughts are getting worse and worse everyday I wake up with these intrusive intense thoughts. I want help. But idk how to help myself. I try to go to my mom for help she doesn’t understand me nobody understands but me.

Hi guys I struggle with ROCD a lot and I change from so many ROCD themes. Right now, I’m worried that my fiancé is abusive. He will never ever cuss at me or do anything crazy, but I find that when he is mad (not at me, just in general), he will start like hitting things. Like for example, we were studying and he was trying to figure out some code for his comp sci stuff and he couldn’t figure it out so he starts like hitting his chair. I’m really really worried that I’m going to end up in something abusive. Again, he does not ever cuss at me or yell at me and he is very understanding when I bring a concern, we’ve been together 3 years now. I just go online and I type in “my boyfriend hits things when he is angry” and I see the domestic abuse thing pop up so I’m really freaking out

I really struggle with knowing when to do erp and whether to just push through because sometimes I feel so overwhelmed and dysregulated in life that it’s like why add more? It’s almost like flooding oneself purposefully. I don’t know if I need to tone down the exposures or what to do ?