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Video games. I'm losing my enjoyment over them. I either get annoyed at a game, angry that I'm losing because I just can't help but take it personally I guess, or just flat out bored with games I'm not really used to. They just aren't what they used to be. Idk if it's because of OCD or depression or anxiety or whatever, I just no longer enjoy them. No matter what I do, a competitive game just puts me in a bad mood even if I'm trying my absolute best to not take it personally. It just happens.
i need help with this im going to start sobbing and I really need someone to talk to out loud that also has ocd , these thoughts im dealing with right now are having me panicking too much ,please I really need someone to talk to even through text
i literally cannot breathe sometimes. All my thoughts are focused on God and I cannot make them stop. Every time I try to pray it’s like something is blocking me from having a true, chill, and honest conversation with God. It’s so bad and it hurts so much and all the bad thoughts come at me and fight me and i just need to breathe. I’m so tired…
Hey guys, it’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been doing okay with my obsessions for the most part, at least with not getting too overly anxious but I still do a lot of compulsive behavior. I’ve been dealing with a lot of stuff recently, along with health fears that my OCD is picking up on a lot. I just feel like with all that is happening and my stress in life right now, it’s causing me to relapse to bad habits I had in the past. I feel alone to be honest, I’ve been using dating apps tying to meet new people and trying to see if I can connect with someone. But with my stress and falling back to old and bad habits, I just feel gross, pathetic, and unworthy of love. It’s hard, I don’t have many people to turn to. Is there anything you guys do to help with low self esteem and stress relief?
I told my doctor that I was having bad anxiety due to ocd health related problems. So she prescribed me this as a temporary relief. However I saw the side effects saying it could cause cardiac arrest and I'm kind of regretting even taking it now. I don't have anything wrong with my heart that I know of but like I already get bad ocd thinking I'm gonna have a heart attack. Then to find out the side effect of this one usually is with the heart it's kind of making me not even want to take it anymore. I don't want to panic over it but now I'm worried that I should of taken it in the first place tonight.
This fear is very complex cause it comes from 2 extreme side, one being that the only thing you have to do to be saved is to believe in Christ and accept him as your saviour, and the other one is that it's not enough but it makes me spin then cause i feel like im not saved, cause i question many sins if they are really sins, and i feel like i do it to still act on it and its a way to speak myself into doing them so i dont feel bad about myself which is pride i think. But the first one makes me angry, cause people are abusing Jesus death. In my opinion the "Just accept Jesus and you're saved" view is false, yeah you dont have to do anything, but if it doesnt show up in your life that youre accepted Jesus, you're not saved... It makes me angry cause i see people who claims that are christians and they still act the same way as before, they still live in sin, and these people would say they are saved cause Jesus paid it all... thats abusing his sacrafice... There are things that are hard to leave like drug or alcohol addiction i understand, but its an excuse to still act on it cause Jesus already paid the price for future sins too... I even heard someone saying " a christian who is abusing at home like beating his wife and childrens, but he accepted Jesus in his heart he is saved" this is so wrong. This sounds like its made up just to make you feel better. Its like an excuse to still live by sin cause you will be im heaven cause you accepted Jesus. I just cant accept this view it sounds really wrong. I feel bad for those people, i feel bad that i judge them, but it still not right. Then its like we dont have to fight sin, just accept Jesus... But as a said the other side makes me go crazy, im afraid im not really saved cause i still question which sin is actually a sin. Im watching Mark Dejesus, he has good videos, but when he talks about feeling like everything is sin, he brings up things that are clear that arent sins like doing something you like, going for a hike, drawing, or i read that some thinks that taking a shower is a sin, or going to school. You can tell this is ocd, for me, im obsessing about the grey areas. About joking, watching scary things,saying bad words but not in a harmful way to others, just randomly say one if i accidentaly hit myself or something,thinking about sex(this was a big one) and with this i realized it might not be a sin cause how you educate yourself about sex? You have to think about it. It seems like its a sin when you do it to satisfy your feelings or youre thinking about someone else. But in a normal way, it seems like its not a sin. But im overthinking this too.
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Hello, I just started therapy not too long ago for my contamination OCD and happy to finally be here. Almost right away I started feeling a little better, but recently found a mouse in my house. Mice are at the very top of my trigger list & im just sad because I feel that the progress I had been making is all gonna go down the drain. I feel trapped in my room rn because of certain tiles in my house that the mouse ran on top of. My family members without OCD are constantly stepping on those tiles & spreading the germs all around the house with their shoes. They also have no problem picking things they just stepped on off the floor without washing their hands afterward & going on to touch other things in the house. I know I can’t control other people, but it’s all just making me so anxious & I’ve locked myself in my room rn. But even then I don’t feel completely calm in here because I kicked my door open with the tip of my shoe and thought to myself “what if the mouse also touched that part of your door? Now the tip of your shoe is also contaminated”. I don’t know what to do and feel so exhausted all the time thinking like this. If anyone has any advice that would be great & sorry if this post is long/doesn’t make a lot of sense.
Please someone leave any advice or similar stories. I had identified as bi and then had fears about my sexuality a few years ago, and decided on the term unlabeled to describe my sexuality to anyone who asked and it made me the most comfortable because i was confused about my romantic atraction and sexual attraction towards women vs men. Recently, seemingly triggered by pride month and people discussing comp het, while in a relationship with my boyfriend I have been dealing with fears of wondering if I'm really attracted to men at all or what attraction really feels like and being sexually aroused by explicit images of women I had seen by accident. I am worried that I am experiencing comp het or I'm in the wrong relationship or I'm going to hurt my boyfriend. I have also voiced all of this to him and he is there for me, but that doesn't mean it's easy. I have other anxieties about my relationship and worry if those are ocd related or not as well(such as worrying about limerence) but I'm just so terrified. I feel that just because I have ocd that doesn't mean I can have these experiences that other queer people actually have and it makes me worried that I coukd go years without ever knowing just for one day to know and my whole world to be flipped upside down. I'd rather die than for that to be my reality. Someone please leave advice or tips it's all so appreciated.
Is anyone else frustrated with posts on this app? Every time I log on someone is either confessing or asking for reassurance. It’s hard to see everyone struggling so much, too. That’s how it was with the support groups as well. I had to stop going because it turned into people confessing and reassurance seeking. This safe space doesn’t feel so safe anymore. I’m so lucky my therapist is amazing and therapy is going well. I highly recommend starting therapy here if you haven’t already.
ive judt been really confused lately. I dont know who i am and ive been feeling really off. I was searching stuff up and saw that alot of my symptoms align with phycosis or schizophrenic im fucking terrified and im panicking i cant breathe please help
can ocd make you feel stuck like if there is no way out and make you have the thoughts sometimes when ur with a certain friend or parent and then the thoughts will come like “what if i hurt myself and wonder what so so and reacts” then i’m like oh my gosh they would be so devastated i’m trying to sit with thoughts and sit with the anxiety and im rlly tired right now i’m trying not to do compulsions.. but sometimes the thoughts will tell me to “do it” and it’s like urges then that’s when i tense up does this happen??
i get harm thoughts and i’m also plagued by thoughts telling me hurting others isn’t wrong 😭 so basically i feel like i may start believing that and then hurt people or animals. i don’t understand my mind, i just want to know and FEEL that murder, hurting others or animals is wrong again bc this is scaring me and then my ocd tells me i shouldn’t be scared bc it isn’t even wrong to hurt others or whatever. it’s freaking me out.. even when i try not to do compulsions and ignore the thoughts and feelings it’s like i feel like i NEED to address and disprove them and i need to make sure i know it’s wrong. my mind even tests me by giving me scenarios of other people hurting and killing eachother and i check and see whether i feel it’s wrong. i’m tired, i’m scared, i want to go back to normal and understand these things are bad :/
I understand that rumination is a choice but it feels out of my control. I cannot stop doing it and I’m driving myself crazy. What’s the best advice you’ve gotten for this?
I really think I've developed schizophrenia at the age of 56 after 20 years of harm OCD. I'm so worried and the more I think of it, the worse it gets. I'm so scared. Can anyone relate? I need to get the courage to see a psychiatrist.
Am I crazy for thinking that my boyfriend watching porn is cheating?
My boyfriend used to have a porn addiction and he says that he quit and I believe him but my ocd is crazy latched on to it and I just feel like every time he doesnt respond he is watching porn. I dont know what to do and I feel so so sick. Its making me feel gross whenever I think about sex or think about him being sexual and I feel sick with anxiety. I dont jnow what to do. Can anyone relate or does anyone have any advice? This is taking up every hour of every day worrying
My father just told me that I’m a bad daughter to him, and in our religion I didn’t get my parents validation, I will go to hell no matter what, so why bother live if I’m going to hell no matter what good I do?
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