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So before I started treatment my sister had anxiety meds so I asked her because my ocd was really bad and it’s bad right now like extremely. Theme after theme so I she gave me 2 until I can get prescribed some and i took it hours ago and all I am is tired, I still have the anxiety and maybe worse. Excuse my language but I feel like shit
So in the past year that I’ve been diagnosed with OCD it’s always been relationship OCD and I feel that I’ve got a pretty good handle on understanding how to deal with relationship OCD but the past few days I have been obsessing over like different health things like yesterday I was watching so many videos on rabies and like learning all about it and questioning if I had rabies and then like I have a dry patch on me and I thought it was ringworm or something, but I don’t think it is based on like how it is I don’t know, but I did a Teladoc appointment because I noticed a rash and they gave me a prescription for it and like it’s no big deal. it’s just a yeast infection but then he said that like the thing that I thought was ringworm, I should go see my primary care provider to make sure that it’s not skin cancer and so now I’ve been looking up like skin cancer signs what it looks like and stuff because he kind of freaked me out with that and I don’t know if this is a normal reaction to someone saying that or if this is more of like an obsession now.
What dose? How long did it take? Some people say Wellbutrin or anti psychotics have helped the ssri eliminate ocd! I also know some people don’t respond well to some ssris or dose, so I’m just trying to get others experiences about the timeline it took to get better and what percent reduction you had with ___ med(s) I’m on 3 weeks of lexapro the lowest dose and I’m not sure if it’s the best fit or too low a dose. I’ve heard it takes 2 months to see a result. I’ve had ocd for a year and a bit over as a result of being roofied. Thanks!
Anyone else have ROCD and just go through a breakup? We broke up 2 months ago but I still think about it every day. I moved to another country to study for the semester and yet I still think about it. Is anyone else going through this? Just looking for someone to talk to 🫶 or some advice on how to deal with this (that doesn’t involve compulsions lol). I also made this playlist that has been helping me get through this experience. It’s private so request if you’d like to follow but I’d love to see if it helps anyone else out. Thanks!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6klqvxGgbBuMEYE61G4zLp?si=oxo5LdTTTlSMOCzOa7G2Lw&pt=0160b2efd08ddb94d55252adcbfb7e56&pi=MrYcTDa5SVyIB
TW!!! 18+!! I walked past my old school and saw loads of kids. One of them stood out to me, in the sense of “I would of probs had a crush on him when I was his age in school” now my Pocd is saying this is wrong and a bad thought and now I’m spiralling (edited)
I feel like I just have to be lesbian because I keep running away from men when they like me back. Like I’m using my avoidance and intimacy issues as an excuse. It all feels so real. I really don’t want to be lesbian but it feels like I have to be and it would make sense and I would be happier with a woman. Why do I feel like this.
PLEASE ONLY 16+(coming from a 16yo) im talking about kink and it may be triggering for some Hi so I'll say this straightforward i had this kink since being younger, its a tummy kink and like weight gain and humiliation because of it( but not anything like unhealthy, also im not trying to gain weight myself and humiliation with consent of course). But i was terrified for almost a year now that this kink makes me attracted to kids or my family? Like when i imagine for example my mom calling me out for gaining weight i feel it deep down and i really can't tell if it's groinal responses or not. When in real life that happenes(it didn't in a while but yk) i wasn't getting like aroused i think, maybe when i was younger and didn't understood it yet and was finding out this "attraction". Im trying to explain it to myself that even if i would be aroused at those it wouldn't be about the bound or anything just the shame or whatever??? Im so scared tho I don't want to be a weirdo, im already struggling with this kink because of ocd saying im absolutely disgusting, even if it's not my choice. I'd really appreciate some advices of what i should do..
PLEASE ONLY 16+(coming from a 16yo) im talking about kink and it may be triggering for some Hi so I'll say this straightforward i had this kink since being younger, its a tummy kink and like weight gain and humiliation because of it( but not anything like unhealthy, also im not trying to gain weight myself and humiliation with consent of course). But i was terrified for almost a year now that this kink makes me attracted to kids or my family? Like when i imagine for example my mom calling me out for gaining weight i feel it deep down and i really can't tell if it's groinal responses or not. When in real life that happenes(it didn't in a while but yk) i wasn't getting like aroused i think, maybe when i was younger and didn't understood it yet and was finding out this "attraction". Im trying to explain it to myself that even if i would be aroused at those it wouldn't be about the bound or anything just the shame or whatever??? Im so scared tho I don't want to be a weirdo, im already struggling with this kink because of ocd saying im absolutely disgusting, even if it's not my choice. I'd really appreciate some advices of what i should do..
i’ve been missing working out a lot. decided it was time, got a lot of courage. i go to my tiny apartment gym, in the past there’s been 3 people in it maximum. i figured i could handle that without wearing a mask. big mistake. when i came in it looked like there was 2 people, then after my time on the treadmill i saw a 3rd. then i went to the second room to get a foam roller and there were 2 more people. i started feeling nauseous while i was foam rolling. then 2 more people walked in. i left, cried walking up the stairs back to my apartment. this is the most unknown people’s air i’ve exposed myself to in a long time, during a peak covid wave. right now it’s 1 in 21 people in texas. that’s a 30% chance someone in that room had covid recently and could still be contagious. what the fuck is wrong with me? why would i risk my health like that? truly hoping and praying everything will be fine and that i don’t show symptoms over the next couple of days. but it’s all im going to be thinking about until those days pass. fuck.
I'm going to put this in its simplest form. Growing up I believed that a 3 year age gap was normal. I saw it for almost the entirety of my childhood, growing up with cousins, and friends, as well as relationships around me in school. I didn't see it as a target, but a boundary. When I was 18, I fancied someone 3 years younger, I had a private fantasy but stopped because I realised it was inappropriate. When I was 19 something similar happened, but because the girl was 16, the age of consent, it felt more normal. But then I was hit with immediate guilt. I've not pursued anybody underage. I've not interacted with anyone inappropriately underage. As a matter of fact, I'm now in my 20s yet I'm stuck on the guilt of my past actions. My dad said that it's normal teenage sexual curiosity, and just because you become by legal definition an adults you're still learning. He said what matters is who I am today. But I cannot let go of that guilt.
I am scared of kissing bugs and the Chagas Disease, I know it's been around but it was something that I personally didn't know. Now that I do it's like bed bugs all over again but way worse. I'm so scared I'm infected, or that I will, or the bugs get worse, or I kill one in accident and I then get infected. So many things that I'm just scared of
So, my therapist recently recommended nocd, because they have more therapists qualified to treat OCD. Mine is pretty mild, but it has escalated since I moved out (or, maybe it's just more apparent). Either way, the website says my insurance is in-network, but I got an email saying this wasn't the case. The out-of network cost is expensive, and the amount of debt I'd incur with the payment plan is exorbitant. I've emailed to double check, but I am a little frustrated, because I want to get better, but the economic cost of getting better seems too high with the options I currently know of. Does anyone have recommendations? Thank you!
As at the end of the day yes we are in control, but i mean with my brain. it continues to send those unwanted thoughts and every time they play through i feel nothing but complete dread as it upsets me so much i just bawl . for a week iv felt nothing but vulnerable, and i try to be reasonable and say to myself this is only a loop and you will figure it out at the end and you’ll find the light. but there’s always the other half thats like . “but what if not” “no you’re gonna get worse” . dude like what i genuinely cannot find comfort in anything and with even distractions it’s still there . i cannot feel comfortable with myself and i hate that it’s putting me in this little depressive episode. “ just accept it, and don’t fight it” “tell it i don’t know” . that never works either it’s just there it’s like a brick wall and you’re trying to push it . and if you were trying to push a brick wall what do you think is gonna happen. nothing , it’s not even gonna budge. it makes me feel hopeless, i miss who i was the week before this one.
I know I keep coming back with this exact issue lol Idk why it happens. It only happens and stays consistent around my boyfriend of close to 2 years. I am happy. I love him. I enjoy being with him. So why am I nauseous? It happens when I get triggered like when I have a groinal response but when I’m just SITTING with my bf doing nothing- i feel this like. Almost wanting to throw up? But not really? Like I said- I love him, very much. He’s wonderful and kind. He looks at me with such care. And I look at him the same. I love to be next to him. Cuddling him. Telling him I love him Even typing this I feel nauseous, google said lovesickness but idk. I feel like this nausea started after I got on birth control last October? I seem to be having issues with it I think(I’ve been having 3 week long periods since April. Not consistently. But it’s like my 3rd period now and I passed a massive clot so I’m seeing a doctor😃😃) things are. Odd. I’m worried all of this means I’m gay or don’t love him and should leave him wtf etc. We have been discussing marriage so maybe that’s where it’s coming from? And also we’ve been sneaking around for the last 2 years and his parents are getting less and less happy about it (very traditional Muslim family). We’re serious it’s not just a fling I can assure you. We talked about marriage like 4 months in, kinda when my ocd started actually, and it helped relax me and remind me hey things are going well. He’s great. You guys align and can talk about anything. It’s smthn I dreamed about honestly. He makes me laugh. I make him laugh (not as often, I’m not that funny). Idk. Maybe I’m worried I don’t deserve it or it’s all gonna implode Also this frog in my throat seems to make me hungry? But also I can’t eat when I have it. It’s hard to swallow food. That’s always happened so it is an anxiety response ig but. Why? When he’s with me and we try to eat food most of my hunger goes away after a few bites. I can usually eat quite a bit depending on the day. Idk. I’m tired. I don’t feel like myself anymore Advice or related stories would be great🫶🫶🥹🥹
Since i was 16 (18 now) it all started with pocd related intrusive thoughts I would have panic attacks in my closet almost every single day sat there all day every day just having horrible horrible gut wrenching anxiety all day long. I would have a thought and tell myself if were to ever harm like that that i would end my life and I would repeat it in mt head every time a thought came up. I started looking up what I was experiencing and it said something about pocd. It went from pocd to monitoring my every breath and movement for a fear I was breathing too much and people would think I was strange for breathing so heavily and it even happened when I was alone. I even hyper monitored my walking because i though people though I walked strange. It then became something that I think might be something called staring ocd. Where im afraid to look down because im afraid someone will see it as inappropriate and think Im weird. I still monitor where my eyes go 24/7 and im very hyper aware when im around people. Idk if this is a symptom or if I really am just strange but random thoughts like weird sentences about someone would just pop up and Im usually pretty harsh to myself when even the slightest sexual thought pops up now. Idk if its just a dirty mind but its images in my head, thoughts, words, sentences. I dont like them I want them gone completely if i could shut my thoughts off entirley I would. Recently I feel like I may be going through something called exstistencial ocd. A week or so back. I began looking into philosophy because it sounded interesting and that then lead into spirituality and then somehow it got into how the government was controlling us all and the free masons own everything. for about a week I was afraid the government was always watching me at night and sometimes I would get extremely paranoid. Idk what to do how to get help if I even have it. Also idk if this is a symptom of real event but if I perceive that someone thinks something I said is weird or awkward I beat myself up over it for sometimes days. Ive become extremely quiet because im afraid if I try to make a joke or say something that I will accidentally say something socially wrong or inappropriate. Im scared im miserable please help. What do I do. Does it sound like I have it?
Day 7 of being back on medication! It’s so rough… I can’t even remember the last time I felt this way. I started taking it back in 2017 for the first time and it worked. For the years to follow up until now I’ve had my moments where OCD has come back but not as strong and sticky as when now that I wasn’t on medication. Today is day 7 and I am feeling discouraged because I wanted to feel better already and i am till having anxiety attacks, the thoughts are racing and I can’t sleep well. I’m not hungry The reason why I stopped my medication 5 months ago is because I got pregnant but I regret it so much. Please send words of encouragement if you have experienced anything like this and medicine worked again for you. I’m 21 weeks pregnant
So am I'm beginning to understand my anxiety more, I feel like it's becoming harder to understand. I'm not really sure why but I have steps that I'm taking to truly try and get through handling these feelings. Adults only please . . . . . It's made me realize why I watch porn because it's to get away from the anxiety and it's the only time I'm not feeling anxiety but it ends up coming back stronger and I end up feeling worse afterwards. What bothers me even more is when disgusting pedophiles post stuff with fictional child characters in it (People say it's legal because they aren't real and that's just sick to me and it means creeps and monsters can use this and have no consequences) on YouTube and I just happen to be scrolling by videos and boom stupid stuff like that is just there and it feels intense anxiety and pretty much dying on the inside because of nasty shit like that. I just want to be able to control my anxiety and not have it control me anymore. Does any other adults and ONLY ADULTS relate?
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