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I see allot of people complaining about their OCD but not enough about what they are doing to recover. What exposures are you doing? Are there unique therapies that you are doing? Are you feeling any better on medications like prozac or zoloft? How hard have you been working on controlling your anxiety. Give me some hope!

When I fantasize about my partner I feel like I imagine it from a weird pov where I imagine him doing the actions but I’m not him? Almost like an observer of us but leaning a little towards his point of view. I’m not sure how to explain it but now I feel like it’s a “sign” because I don’t imagine it from my point of view. 🙄🙄

I posted on the ocd subreddit about my thoughts and someone asked me if my thoughts are real or intrusive and it's making me want to cry

Hello everyone, this is my first time talking here. I’ve been a victim of OCD for a long time now so I’ve came here to see if I can find some advice. I have been repeatedly worrying about abnormal things happening to me or my possessions recently. For example, I’ve been worrying about their being irritating music uncontrollably coming out of me or people are able to see what I can see but I somehow don’t know it. At the moment I’m worrying that somehow I’m causing people’s phones to act weird and do stuff on its own whenever I’m using my own phone. I know these things make no sense and they aren’t even possible, even the one about my phone making weird things happening without me knowing, though I keep constantly trying to justify it happening or not even though it clearly isn’t something that can happen and I keep worrying that if I don’t figure out what is happening, then it can become a reality. I’ve tried numerous things such as not following the thoughts or to do meditation stuff though whenever I get one of these obsessions, I’m always imagining my fears happening which make it really distressing even if it isn’t happening right then and there, and I feel as though asking people whether these things are happening is the only way to deal with it. Being a Christian, I have prayed to God numerous times asking him to never let these things happen, but then I keep worrying by checking things I am distrusting him which I feel guilty about and I continuously keep worrying whether he may make it happen for some reason. Does anyone have any ideas that can help me, and what type of ERP practices could I do in this case?

Hi all. By far and away rumination is my biggest compulsion, and I find it feels very automatic. Does anyone have tips who have overcome rumination that has felt automatic in the past? I am guessing its not an all or nothing thing, that even regular people ruminate on occasion but gently bring themselves out of it. I think I'm probably trying to control it too much, which can become an obsession in itself

I feel really alone because i don't know anyone else with my type of OCD. I have harm OCD but my ritual is harming myself to match intrusive thoughts to keep others safe.

what if my mental "checks"(imagining scenarios with the same sex to see if i am aroused)are actually what i want but i call them "checks" and "compuslions" to mask my denial with hocd??? please help i am starting to panic that i have always been gay in denial and it's not hocd i have been doing good for about 4 days

Smfh. I hate how my ocd always has to interfere with my sexual thoughts of women smfh. My ocd just does not like me being able to think about sex with women smfh. It will do anything in its power to mix it up smfh. I could be thinking about sex with a girl and it will start to make me think of something else like a person, an object, an animal anything to stop me from thinking about sex with a women smfh. Like it’s not my fault. I just get anxiety about it and it keeps me having an arousal feeling cuz it’ll mix up the sexual thought of a chick smfh. I’m sorry but I can’t help it smfh.

Please read. Two weeks ago I got an image about strangling my parents or other people. But now I even have thoughts such as ' If x happens, you could kill them'. These thoughts feel like they are my own desire not intrusive thoughts. Could I be a psycho ? Or maybe a narcissist? How could I possibly know that ?? It feels so real scary af. I'm scared of what I could be.

real event ocd coming to attack when i am trying to sleep...i feel so much regret and guilt, i just keep writing in my notes like someone can hear me...:( i wish i could turn back time

Last night I went out drinking for the first time in over a year and a half. This morning I’m full of anxiety (which I know is common after drinking). We went out and a random girl held my hand because we were all running to this place, before this theme I would’ve been fine with this and thought nothing of it but now I’m worried I liked holding her hand :’( I also had a bunch of random guys I hadn’t met before chatting me up in this club whilst my friend was with her boyfriend, I didn’t fancy any of them which makes me think in gay/ bi or something :( I also felt so ugly, manly looking all night and out of place, I really don’t want lockdown to be over, I just want to stay inside forever :(

BASICALLY MY FEAR IS SEMEN CONTAMINATION IN A BROADER WAY BODILY FLUIDS OCD I TAKE A BATH EVERYTIME I EJACULATE BUT THE LAST TIME I DID IT I FEEL LIKE I DIDN'T WASH MY EARS SO I FEAR IVE SPREAD IT ALL OVER MY HOUSE

TW DEATH: I’ve figured out my core fear is death. I was curious what others had done for their exposures when this was the case? I’m scared of if heaven if real or not, the idea of being buried since I’m claustrophobic, the idea of being separated from the ones i love,. I literally shutter just at writing some of these words. Someone very close to me just lost their husband in a tragic accident and it’s been very triggering.

Not to sound too depressing but does anybody else get scared or worried about the fact you have to deal with OCD for the rest of your life now that you have it.. Is it even possible to live somewhat of a normal life and have your thoughts not bother you as much?

I keep putting off having a baby when my partner really really wants one, because I'm terrified that I'll harm it or strangle it or something. Do you think I should have a baby? I want one but I'm terrified that these thoughts will get so bad when the baby comes. I will end up having to leave the house in fits of tears and terror or something

My strangest fear was the fear of chicken soup. Did anybody else ever have a very strange off the wall fear? just wondering

I don’t normally make posts like this but if anyone can relate or has advice so I don’t feel so alone I would appreciate it! I feel like crying and I’m so anxious. So I’ve been dealing with an ocd flare up since February. It started out as contamination and harm after I had a really bad experience on a edible. The contamination mostly centered around the fear of someone accidentally giving me an edible to someone putting it in my food or water. Then it went from there to my Brian going you know what’s worse than edibles? LSD. So then I obsessed over that and it’s been like that on and off. I’ve had an extremely hard time with it it’s been one of the worst themes I ever had. I don’t eat certain things. Especially sweets. I avoid them. I avoid taking medication Bc I’m scared. I limit myself. I’m horrible about opening water bottles and if it doesn’t open just right I won’t drink out of it. I know it’s crazy I know it’s untrue but the panic I feel traces back to that night. I don’t ever want to feel that out of control again it scared me so bad I got diagnosed with ptsd (to be fair I had a lot of unresolved trauma that caused my glass to overfill) well, I’ve been going to EMDR therapy it’s got my ptsd under control but the ocd is louder. My ocd is clawing to stay alive. I’ve started to have intrusive thoughts now about my boyfriend might slip something into my water even though ITS NOT TRUE. So then I panic because the thoughts are so irrational that I get scared like why would I ever think that about him???? But the intrusive thoughts are so jarring and I don’t want my ocd to focus on him now! I need advice! I’ve been prescribed pristiq but haven’t taken it Bc you guessed it.,.. I’m scared to! I can’t go on like this! The thoughts are so irrational it scares me even though the rational side of me knows it’s not true but I guess that’s ocd. We get scared of the thoughts even though we know it’s not true and I know it’s my brain trying to keep the ocd going. I know therapy must be working otherwise my theme subjects wouldn’t have changed so fast. I’m so tired of this.

Any pregnant mamas on here ?

Somethings just never change smfh. Another day where I don’t go to the gym smfh. It’s the same thing every day. I get like 3-5 hrs of sleep and I’ll get up knowing I’ve only gotten that much of sleep and I’ll drink some coffee to try to wake up and eat and watch a little bit of tv and then I’ll start to feel tired again and find myself just turning the tv off and trying to fall back to sleep and by the time I wake up it’s to late to go cuz it’s when everyone goes to the gym and I won’t be able to do anything I want to do so I stay at home watch some more tv probably meditate a couple times to clear my mind and that’s how my day is. I honestly don’t even know where to go for therapy smfh. I was told by a previous therapist that by June Medicaid was going to be approved to cover residential treatment facilities but idk. My previous therapist was making facial gestures to keep me away when I said to her that’s probably what I’ll do probably cuz she’s still in the mindset I’m gay and just in denial which is why she stopped seeing me. She saw that I was no longer accepting that it’s true and stopped therapy with me. Why else would a therapist all of a sudden stop treatment smfh. I’m not in denial I’m just hard to figure out. It’s not like I try to be. Maybe if they just did there jobs right and payed more attention to me and took a more detailed approach with me I wouldn’t be in this mess. My previous therapist didn’t even take notes which at first I thought it was odd and I started to think she can just remember stuff pretty good. But then when she messed up telling me back something one time made me realize she doesn’t take notes cuz it’s like what for what? It’s in the past why does it matter now? She just nods her head and agrees when I bring up something from the past and goes like yeah I remember smfh. Can’t believe it actually took me that long to figure out her method smfh. My first psychiatrist definitely thinks I’m gay smfh and I’m like 21 to 0 bitch and it’s not because I need to prove anything. I just have sex with escorts cuz I need sex and want to have sex and I got tired of waiting for my ocd to clear up to have mutual sex with a girl. It just sucks I have to pay all cuz of my fuckin ocd. If it wasn’t for my ocd I wouldn’t have done it and would’ve had sex probably a long time ago but it is what it is. I’m doing everything I can to get better it just doesn’t work for me smfh. But yeah I’m kind of at a lost on what therapy to pursue now a days. It’s not like anyone I go to actually gets it and tells me what to do or tells me what I should do smfh.

Why would some girl say that I have a gay face when I'm not gay. I'm so confused 😔