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So I’ve been a bit stressed on top of my regular ocd (Hocd, mild rocd). My libido seems to just be worse than ever and I never want to do anything intimate with my partner and I’m not doing it as avoidance either. It’s just that I’m not in the mood AT ALL. It makes me super super sad, and feel very sorry for my boyfriend. Then by not being in the mood/wanting to have sex I then get intrusive thoughts about my thoughts “all being true.” That’s the least of my worries, but how do I just get over this? Like I said I’m not doing it as a form of avoidance for ocd, it’s just that I have no libido and wish I did so I can enjoy time with my bf. Any advice?? I miss wanting to be intimate with him.

i just want someone to talk to on here but i’m having no luck. this app has been so comforting when i needed it the most and i am really having a hard time right now. every time i share an intimate moment with my boyfriend, even though i know i enjoy it and feel happy and in love, all of that goes always when i call myself gay after it happens. i feel so unlike myself because of these thoughts because i can no longer enjoy these small moments with my boyfriend without what feels like me purposely calling myself gay. i don’t know what our conscious is supposed to sound like, but whatever the voice is that is calling me is far from it. i get filled with anxiety and fear that i could just be in denial and lying to the boy i love, but my heart and soul and mind don’t match up. since the thoughts have gotten worse, i have been listening more to my heart and seeing how i feel deep in my soul, and i know that i was meant to be with men romantically. i am not opposed to being with women romantically at all; i think women are absolutely stunning and when they are great people, it just makes them more attractive to me, but i still don’t feel like i was meant to be with one long term the way that i feel i am supposed to be with men. sorry for this long post, i just feel better writing these things down because it helps me understand better what i am actually going through and helps me collects my thoughts better.

there was someone saying they were suicidal and deleted their post. please reply don't go

Is anyone here refusing to see a therapist because they’re afraid their fears will turn out to be true ?

One of my friends has become so draining, I don’t know how to politely stop speaking to her. I don’t really have the energy to deal with that situation so I’d rather just put up with her here and there for summer classes but I just wanted to vent about how draining she’s become. She’s so pessimistic it’s too much

Childhood guilt and anxiety Im scared i experienced sexual attraction towards other girls when i was a little girl but grew out of it….i never questioned as a child whether i was lesbian or bi even though i knew what it was. And the last time i remember feeling that was like 9 and it was when i watched my girl friend changed. After that i was so uncomfortable at the thought of naked people. (I was also being sexually assaulted the years prior) And i only ever had romantic crushes on boys and saw them as romantic interests. Im so scared im a lesbian….im so scared. I feel like i am and am just realizing:(

Does anyone have ocd where it feels like the thoughts are telling you to act on intrusive thoughts because you could of acted on them in the past and should of been stronger etc? Really struggling with this! They are starting to convince me I’m stuck and feel so hopeless.

i'm not sure if i'll be here in the end of this year. i can't do this anymore i'm fighting but i'm tired

Hi, I'm writing here after reading lots o post about HOCD. I've been suffering from this for a long time (3 years more or less). It all started one day when an image of me kissing my best friend came to me suddenly. Then I started rumiating about that, also I started to look back to my childhood to look signals. 3 years ago it wasn't that convincing. (I also experienced the fear of hurting my family). But now that I have a girlfriend that I love so much (I had HOCD also),I can't take it anymore, when I see a male that seems handsome I feel like something in my gut and a feeling of blushing, I was so afraid at first but now I'm tired. I want to be who I was, I want to feel attraction again for girls and live a life full of joy. Sometimes I thought of ending everything in life to be at peace but I think that's the worst thing I could do. I don't know how to figure out who am I, sometimes I dont know what I like. I used to spend hours and hours researching on Google, reading posts on Instagram about OCD and why it's so convincing. I watch pics about males and I do not get turned on but sometimes I feel like I want that and I think I do not. Please someone can relate ? Thanks for reading.

i haven't been doing super well, but it's still not as bad. makes me wonder if what i am going through is even hocd. i truly feel like i am a lesbian in denial and it has taken its toll on me, but i am still not suffering as much as before, or not anxious as much as expected. makes me think that i may not even have ocd and it's just denial. please help :(

Hi, everyone- Executive function deficits are becoming a real issue for me and I’m looking for information on how to deal with them. I consider myself to be in remission from my OCD but I can’t seem to get anything done. It feels like I’m just spinning my wheels at work and around the house. For a while I though I might have adhd in addition to OCD but the research seems to show that the two rarely occur together. They are really causing me issues at work and I don’t even know where to begin looking for help.

Good morning and happy Monday, yea things aren't perfect and ocd is still there but today is another opportunity to stand up to it and starve the monster! Brothers and sisters, we are in this together! Do not be afraid!

has anyone ever had hocd and turned out to be gay? i feel in denial, i feel like i am one of those few who come out as gay at the end of hocd, and i fear i am not letting myself be attracted to girls because i am in denial and living a lie has anyone ever gotten to this extreme??

Anyone here with religious ocd. I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts . Feels as I’m slowing losing my mind..

I sure hate how when I’m in a deep hole, every attractive woman that comes up on my screen I don’t feel anything, but every man that comes up, my mind is telling me that’s what I want (I’m a straight man, and you would never know this was the case based off of who gets me physically aroused) But, throw in the groinals and the concern that you’ll become actually aroused by the orientation you’re not attracted to, and it’s crippling and your confidence feels so low.

Ok I'm not sure but I think I am experiencing an ocd spiral and it's been going a few days what are some good coping mechanisms or exercises I can do?

anyone else feel like whenever they're starting to heal/get better and the anxiety starts subsiding, all of what they were going through was fake and a lie, whick makes it seem like denial? because like at least back when i had extreme anxiety and always felt nauseous, i knew for sure i didn't want that but now i am so confused and it all seems so real and that my hocd was a big lie and a cover up for my denial

Unsure if I have ocd but if I do I think I have some sort of relationship type for sure, I have extreme thoughts about cheating on my partner or them cheating on me and then I’ll get mad and want to get back at them. I constantly think about downloading Grindr and having sex with other people and then(sometimes) developing stds unknowingly, transmitting it to them unknowingly and just not caring I have to tell my partner everything that happens, maybe compulsively maybe not. Very hazey on this part. So obviously the second half is not rooted in my reality. I go between hating my partner viciously to loving them so much and I don’t know what I’m capable of doing. I just have very intense thought spirals about this I’ve tried to combat this by saying “if I cheat, who cares? Whatever. I’ll download any app and have sex with whoever.” And sometimes it works but other times I just feel more alone and more “evil” (note: I know evil isn’t a real thing. Sort of reclaiming it but not at the same time.) Don’t really know what I want to gain out of posting this but I’ve been on a high stress roadtrip for almost a week and feel like I’m falling apart but also can’t afford to do that because I need to take care of my partner who is more fragile than me. Which I for the most part am ok with, but it feels like so much lately and inflames my Maybe-potentially ocd spirals (I’m not looking for reassurance on this, I have no where else to vent so trying this out I guess)

Okay so this is not about OCD but I need to get it off my chest and this is the closest thing to therapy that I have cause it it very expensive and I can't afford it. I feel like my mom has a sexual problem. I feel unsafe around her. When I can growing up she always wanted to touch me and touch and see my boobs. When I hugged her she would always try to touch my back trying to figure out if I was wearing a bra or a tank top. And between 1 and 2 years ago I stopped letting her touch me. Not my hands, not a hug, nothing. And even though I've told her that I don't like touching she always tries to grab my but, or my thigh or my belly. When she does I feel like I wanna push her and I have a panick attack. I'm 19. She doesn't like when I have friends. It feels like she gets jealous and she always tries to keep me home, to not go out at all. I feel like I'm not making any sense but I needed to get that off my back

Comphet masterdoc is so triggering when it feels like i can relate to everything:(