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Does anyone else feel almost constantly on edge around your partner and not want to have sex even though you know they are amazing? I think I am still going back and forth between believing that I have rOCD and bring able to recognise that this is a symptom. But how can a relationship last if you don't want to have sex?

I dont think i can continue no more, i feel disgusted With myself, ever since i came back from vacation i couldnt stop thinking if i did someone to some kids in that hotel. And then after that me and my family went and visit another family that they knew and there was a child there and Im scared that i did something to him to, TWO CHILDREN. I cant wake up everyday anymore, its hard cause i HAVE TO BE 100 PERCENT SURE NOTHING HAPPENED, and then what if i did something to my grandfather. AND THEN When we came back home to Norway i was scared i was gonna do something to my sister while everyone was asleep, so the next day i asked my mom did i wake up in the middle of the night or something and she said no, i asked her because she hears everything and wakes up as soon as she hears someone walk. And im scared i did something to my sister yesterday too. I cant live like This anymore. If i did those things i dont deserve hapiness. I am for real i have to commit suicide. People can tell me how much as they want that it didnt happen but HOW CAN THEY BE SO SURE. Im scared, im worried. Imagine if i didnt go to that trip at all. I knew things were going to Get Worse. Im scared i will do something to my sister later too (everyone is asleep) i Get so paranoid its like what if i did something to someone 1 MINUTE AGO, HOW CAN SOMEONE FORGET IF THEY HURT SOMEONE OR NOT 1 MINUTE AGO.

i literally cant take this anymore it's too much

Does anyone else get triggered by people doing things you think are wrong but they think are normal? (I already posted this once but there were a couple typos and it was confusing)

I think I’m in denial. this thing I do is too on the nose. Since my HOCD got bad again, I’ve done this thing. Sometimes, when I’m talking to my friends about sex/masturbation, I’ll exaggerate about my attraction to men. For example, I’ll say that I can get off just looking at a man fully clothed. This seems like something someone who is trying to convince THEMSELVES that they like men would do. I have no idea why I do this. I’m really worried people think I’m gay, so maybe this is just a compulsion? Is this a compulsion or a denial behavior?

I watched porn and i feel guilty. My brain is telling me that they could have been 18 on the dot but i still watched it bc i felt like my brain was sabotaging me. I clicked on videos with mature audiences but it tells me you scrolled through young pornstars. I feel disgusted and depressed. I honestly don’t care about living sometimes.

Im giving up! If im gay, im gay. I dont wanna be but im so over thinking about this ALL THE DAMN TIME Like imma go crazy

I got fucking backfired today about an exposure I did a few days ago. I'm afraid to be constantly listened to through my camera smartphone. So in order to prove to myself that's bullshit I feel the URGE to pop the camera up and say awful things toward myself or people I care about, but once I do it I feel so bad I'm so scared someone could hurt the people I mentioned it's awful no one not experiencing OCD could understand the triggers, the inner fight between your soul and your heart. Anyway, a few days ago I decided to say awful things and this time it was my mother who was related to my saying. At first it felt good but has anyone already made a compulsion, felt better but then did a compulsion as if this one was the one you literally CROSSED the line. It often happens to me but each time I feel like I crossed the line I know I go in hell for several days before getting away of this place. I'm gonna say awful things using my camera now (even tho again I don't record anything I just faint to make a video sayings horrible stuff. What should I do? Am I right to expose myself or is it a bad thing to me it's good because I have to face my fear and I'm not afraid to do it but the guilt is fierce man. Hope I could have some advice from people who understand this shitty ocd stuff. Thanks for having read it hop yall get better soon 🙋‍♂️.

I’m freaking out so bad I have so so so many struggles and fears around intimacy with my boyfriend that it truly feels like I don’t want to have sex with him but I do I want to so badly and I want to enjoy things with him so much. But yet I can only enjoy it when I really really focus on it so doesn’t that mean I’m forcing it??? Like if I just try to do it without thinking about everything I won’t be able to enjoy it so does that mean I’ll never be able to truly let go of that bc I don’t actually enjoy it? I don’t want to have sex with a girl not at all and I don’t want anyone else to be with my partner like that but me. So why can’t I enjoy it freely? Like if I don’t focus on it I won’t even want to. I hate myself , I feel like a monster and like there’s something wrong with me.

BIG tw in advance for really gross intrusive thoughts. i feel horrible, i keep thinking bad stuff and feeling like i’m gonna act on it. i don’t feel scared or anything anymore even though after i feel guilty as hell cause i can’t tell if it was me or just ocd. i was just watching my brother and i had this thought “ if i did something bad to him no one would know “ and i focused on it on purpose for erp reasons but then i thought about doing something inappropriate to him and i genuinely felt like i was gonna do it / i wanted to do it even more so because i knew it was bad but like this doesn’t match with my morales at all. i don’t think i can handle this any longer i can’t tell of this is an ocd urge or not anymore i feel like it isn’t and it makes me feel disgusting i want to cry

I’ve struggled with disorderly eating in the past (I.e. avoiding meals, feeling guilty about eating, becoming very thin, etc). Luckily I was able to get it under control, and I’m okay now. It’s hot, and my family are in bad moods because of the heat. I had my lunch at 12, and it’s like quarter to 6 as I write this. I’ve not snacked, and I literally had a piece of toast for my lunch, and no breakfast. I asked my family when they were going to make dinner, and my mum scowled at me and was like, ‘how are you hungry?’… I was shocked and said that I’ve literally only ate a piece of toast, and I said that was nearly 6 hours ago, and she just looks at me and goes, ‘Why does everything have to be on a timeline with you?’ I don’t ever talk about ‘times’, so she’s clearly just trying to find something to justify why she’s so angry for no reason. Anyway, I know this is irrational but I can feel some of my old thoughts and feelings sneaking in…, like, ‘maybe you shouldn’t be hungry’, ‘maybe you’ve gained weight, that’s why she’s saying that’, etc. I don’t know… can someone give me some advice?

Hi, My name is stephen and hope you don’t mind me reaching out. This is my sons account and using this to gather support for my wife and I. My son has been sectioned for trying to take his own life twice in the last 7 days which is extremely heartbreaking for is My wife and I have seen my son suffer for over 2 years with OCD of a child nature and homosexual nature and we have no idea what to do as a family going forward. We have seen mutilple therapist over the years who have indicated to us as a family he suffers from severe OCD and is not a pedophile or Gay. He mentioned to Julie and i he was coming onto this application software to obtain help but seems it’s been the ultimate cause of his mental health. He has reported back to us on daily basis that you can have Homosexual obsessions and realise you are Gay and also Child obsessions and realise you are pedophile. This is where it leaves my wife and I in a difficult situation as I have attended multiple therapy sessions with my son and documented the dialogue from councillors in private conversations saying this isn’t true. So I ask why has my son deteriorated so much from this application? And is this true? Kind regards.

I am really afraid I am going to do bad things so people will treat me more like an adult 😭 I keep getting all these intrusive thoughts about it and I don't know what to do bc they feel so real

I feel like I can’t identify intrusive thoughts…I’m just constantly trying to figure my sexuality out. Like, it’s the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last thing before I go to bed and I’ve been diagnosed with OCD several times but like??? Why do some people know they’re having “1-3 thoughts per hour” if I can’t even identify them?

Sometimes I wonder if God hates me, maybe because He gave me OCD, or maybe because He will never forgive my thoughs even tho I want them gone, my theme isn't scrupulosity OCD, but I do feel like a monter, one that even God can't forgive. I really want this to stop, and I am so ashamed to ask for help, I don't think I even deserve help.

Anyone else have a rlly bad experience with hentai😭🤚🏽

I feel suicidal Bc I have felt aroused by children and I can't make it go away. I'm convinced I'm a pedo and that's a death sentence for me. Ive felt arousal for same sex, animals, children, family members. I'm sick. And I feel hopeless.

Anyone wanna be friends?

would an ACTUAL lesbian say they want to like men and don't want to like girls? what if i am just lying to myself when i say i don't want to like girls? because at this point it feels like my mind says something but my body says otherwise :(

I just saw on IG on my discover page that a man come out to his wife after 17 years of marriage… Anyone get really triggered by these stories? Then I tried to search and search to see if the woman saw signs in her husband… it used to only be women coming out stories .. now it’s all coming out stories that get me stuck and ruminating 😕