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I haven't had a panic attack for about 3 weeks now and I just had a mild one. I need some support. Im supposed to fly out to see my son tomorrow and ocd told me that since the number 7 is my lucky number, that I should act on my thoughts on the 7th. Im so terrified of how ocd is evolving. I had a mild (compared to others) panic attack. I kept trying to do erp everytime I began to do compulsions. I didn't even go to the gym. I messaged my therapist about this so Im waiting to see what she says. Im at a loss. I feel like life is taking my son away from me. I wanna be with my son, but I also want to protect him. Im just exhausted.

⛔️ PLEASE HELP!!!!!! ⛔️ Does anybody get intrusive thoughts that get presented as statements rather than questions? e.g. I am ____, It’s because you’re _____, etc. Is it my mind playing tricks on me? I REALLY hope that it is because I find it extremely upsetting and distressing. Not to mention, I have been dealing pretty well with intrusive thoughts, mental images, gronial responses, false memories and false attraction to far because I sit with my discomfort and refuse to do compulsions (this is incredibly difficult and sometimes my mind will revisit the exact same thought 5-10 times. However, I refuse to do compulsions). As of present, I have developed my attraction again and I have developed a crush on a celebrity that I liked before HOCD plagued me five months ago. However, I was daydreaming about him and I a few days ago and I got an intrusive thought asking me whether I had come out. As you can imagine, I started to overthink it and I began to believe that I was experiencing deja vu and my future self had accepted the thoughts and admitted that they felt denial all along. After getting these thoughts, I began to watch “HOCD vs denial,” videos, analyze my symptoms and ask my mum repeatedly whether she thought I was. I became incredibly uncomfortable and distressed because this particular thought felt so real. I honestly thought that my future self was asking me and I wasn’t sure whether I was being irrational. Either way, my question is whether you can receive intrusive thoughts that are statements rather than questions e.g. I must fancy them. Is this normal because I haven’t seen anyone mention intrusive thoughts like these as they aren’t “what if’s.” Instead, they are saying that I am what I DO NOT WANT TO BE. Please help!

Something important my therapist told me was that I shouldn’t get lost in the contents of my thoughts, but focus on what ties them all together instead— which is uncertainty. Uncertainty is the problem in every theme and situation my mind comes up with. Nothing else matters but solving that issue, not each individual disturbing obsession.

I just watched a video in which an OCD therapist used the exposure of walking into a gas station bathroom, lights off, sitting down on the toilet without checking, using the bathroom & then leaving. He used this as an "overcorrection" exposure. I don't understand these types of assignments. I thought ERP was about facing YOUR obsessions & compulsions as they are, not going against what you set out to do/would usually do in the world. I keep thinking that because I had the intrusive thought "You need to smear soap all over your TV screen", that this now needs to be what I do for an exposure based on what the OCD therapist has people do for "overcorrection" Another intrusive thought I get is that I'm supposed to purposefully leave a lot of soap on myself every time I leave the bathroom, so now I need to actually treat that thought as reality?? ERP is super confusing. I just want to get on with being me, not turning into someone who always lives their life in "overcorrection".

I've just started my seratine 50mg , second day ,feeling a bit weird? Is it too early for them To kick in ,is it my mind just knowing I'm taking them or are they working ? I'm confused ?

Sometimes I feel really isolated as a queer autistic person with ocd. :/

Hi guys i'm 23 and i feel like a loser and everyone around me thinks sorry this has nothing to do with my ocd but i just feel like i need to share this with you

Anyone else with contamination OCD find it WILD that people can carry on with their daily lives during the pandemic? Like, there's actually TONNES of people out there who don't wipe down their groceries or shower when they get home. What?? Or like, theres people who can wait to for a few days with symptoms before they go for a covid test. That blows my mind. At the same time, thoughts of those people help me remember to calm down and trust I'm doing things safely.

Can someone please help. I'm struggling with severe anxiety and depression. I'm very depressed and feeling like I'm hanging on by a thread. It feels completely real and I think there is truth to it. I'm am so sad. I'm sorry, but I just dont want to be gay. Sometimes I feel I would rather die. I have no issues with anyone else being gay, I just dont want it. I feel aroused when I see random women fully clothed. Old women, and children sometimes too. I LIKE THE FEELING. I feel a strong urge to act sexually.I feel like just sinking into the Earth. I want the pain to stop. I am in so much pain. It is getting to the point where it is unbearable. I don't have any fucking money and I can't get help. What do I do.

I am terrified to take a step towards exposing myself to my compulsions. I need everything to be clean for me to be clean so I don’t want to touch anything that I view not clean. I’m stuck and I am working with a therapist on my own, but I am still struggling with several thoughts and weird behaviors.

One of my exposure homeworks is to watch comphet videos or read about comphet. But I’m struggling with compulsions. It’s probably the hardest exposure for me since I’ve never been in a relationship and a lot of the things it talks about is women who are reluctant to have relationships or inexperienced women but for me it’s just a relationship was never a huge part of my life. I would often imagine my life with this “perfect guy” I guess when I was younger and I always had a “type” of man I would want to be with. Again my ocd says this is all brainwashing from society. But anyway, how do I go about doing this because I’m really struggling to just sit with the thoughts and try not to analyze what people are saying. Like I tend to “look for clues” to see if anything relates to me or if someone says something that doesn’t relate to me I say almost automatically “oh great that isn’t me then” It’s so hard to stop it. Does anyone else here find comphet triggering? And how do you do response prevention because I’m having a really hard time.

Well, after a day and a half of nearly no bad OCD thoughts... BAM, I think horrible one and I’m making myself mad because I didn’t feel any anxiety over it. It makes me feel like a disgusting human. Like I don’t want to do anything like my thoughts suggested! I want to be known for the good I can do for this world, I want to help the homeless, my goal is to one day open a homeless shelter! But like my “insidious” thoughts are making me mad. I don’t want my name to go down in history as someone who did bad! I want to be good.

what are your guys thoughts on just trying to make through each day, day by day. This seems so hard and its exhausting with all ot the thoughts.

I’m like trembling and shaking thinking about starting therapy on this app. It almost feels more comfortable to wallow in misery and the fear of even sharing my awful thoughts is too much to handle.

The following text will be a bit stronh.... I'll talk about certain things that are sexual. Please proceed with caution. (tw sex and mastutb-) (23, F) I'm so sorry for talking about this here but I am losing my mind... I saw a law and order episode and I was disgusted.... It was about r-pe. I hate that show. It makes overly exaggerated stories in my opinion My pocd started because I started masturb- (which happened by accident but the details are meaningless). And my former therapist agreed with me. I don't think Ive ever had disgusting (non consensual) fantasies but I've had a few that ashame me greatly. The man on the show filmed himself while masturb- and I felt like a monster... I never did that but this word "masturb" is a huge trigger for me. I was never addicted to it because it never consumed my life. I only had urges to do it if I was at home, bored (at least I hope I have false memories about this.) but I sometimes over did it (4 times in a day) because masturb for me was always unsatisfying... Im still a virgin, but I also believe that it will be unsatisfying too, since I have poor libido. (which is something good for me) Since I started masturb- my brain made me feel like a pervert and I started thinking about sex more and that's why I have false memories about touching a child inappropriately... I hate myself so much... I should kill myself. Masturb- was my biggest mistake. Most of the times I tried to quit only to get strong urges from my body asking for it weeks later. One year ago, I successfully stopped. It was hard but I did it... However lately I have been having stronger urges to do it again and it has been poisoning my dreams. I'm so close to cut down there to stop it. I used to do it a few months ago. I'll restart it if I need to

Has anyone on here gotten engaged / been married while struggling with OCD? If so, I would love some tips on how to enjoy life’s big moments through OCD. ??

How do I know if what I’m going through is HOCD or internalized homophobia?

Hello there, I was diagnosed with half OCD and OCPD by my psychiatrist last month but I've been experiencing intrusive thoughts for 4-5 months since quarantine started. Back then before I was diagnosed, every single week the theme of my intrusive thoughts kept changing to the point I am stuck with Harmful violent thoughts. Since I was diagnosed, I took two medications for 10 days but it helped me for a short while till I decided not to continue my second therapy session because my mother's chemotherapy matters more than my OCD (which my mother's condition matters more) Now I kept having loops of unwanted thoughts about my morality of doing good or bad, and having lots of anxiety tension/pain from my back, making me feel uncomfortable almost everyday but I tend to let it pass through. Any advice?

Hey guys,just wanted to ask a question.Are you all diagnoised with ocd or do you think that you may suffer from it?I have been having a lot of intrusive thoughts,they belong to different types of ocds and cant figure out if its ocd or the thoughts represent me as a person.Im honestly tired of it,its like i have two personalities completely different from each-other.The real problem is that even though i can feel fear in the beginning,after some time,its like i start enjoying them(a part of me enjoys them).Anyone else?

Would like some advice whether or not I should get covid tested... thanks! In the last two weeks, I’ve been three places outside my home, and in all of which I obeyed social distancing guidelines as best as possible: my grandparents’ house (outside), my father’s house (outside), and the grocery store. However, my roommate just went on a camping trip with nine of his friends last week. In the last two or three days, I have a little bit of trouble breathing (which I attribute to throat dryness and lack of hydration in general), a tiny bit of a sore throat (same reasons; I get a sore throat every morning for some reason), and I’ve had jaw/earaches. I’ve also been sneezing a bit, but that’s neither here nor there. I want to get tested because I feel like I’m morally obligated to (with my roommate still visiting friends and going to work and whatnot), but I am concerned about whether or not I am taking away a test from someone who needs one. Plus, I’ve been tested twice since the pandemic started already, most recently 2.5 weeks ago. What’s most concerning to me is that, while I’ve had dry throats and some trouble breathing since March, the jaw/earaches just started, and I’ve been quarantining in my room since then, wearing a mask any time I’m outside my room. If I wanted to, I could make an appointment to get a test in an hour in my town, and so I feel like they have enough, but I’m just not totally sure. I did an online screening with a RN, and they said that while I seem extremely low risk for having the virus, testing would be an appropriate measure. Suffice to say, I’m a bit conflicted and am open to any advice that can be given. Thanks again!