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Hey guys I just wanted to share something with you, please read I'm a 15 year old guy suffering from HOCD and it just doesn't seem to go away. It feels like everything is so real and my life was just a lie upto this point. I am starting to believe that my attraction to girls was false and I am actually attracted to men. Idk up till I was 14 I was attracted to girls but now I feel that during puberty my real sexuality is emerging. Now these thoughts are becoming increasingly annoying and these thoughts are starting to affect my personal life. My relationship with my parents is getting bad and these thoughts are starting to have bad effects on my studies and school life. It feels really bad and just doesn't seem to go away. I can't tell you how many hours of my life have been wasted thinking about these thoughts. This was just my rant and if anyone read till the end thanks a lot for reading this and I hope everyone here becomes free of their ocd and I pray that your ocd will vanish and you will start living a healthy life again. Thanks for reading.

i don’t know why i am constantly so afraid and anxious when i am alone especially at night like all i think about is is someone looking at me or watching me or is someone going to break in etc it’s the worst possible thing to feel like this fight or flight bodily response and emotional response and mental response 24.7 i am so tired and like lately i’ve been obsessing over thoughts about people having repressed memories and wondering if it’s possible idk i just wish i could relax or at least know why i feel like this so i could understand it and learn control it but i have no idea what my triggers even are it’s just a constanr state of being

Hi all. Just wondering, I guess it's anxiety, who of you have experienced just a sudden feeling of fear for no apparent reason, like this uneasy feeling like you're scared but there's no reason and then your mind starts racing and searches for why you feel like this and all kind of bizzare stuff pops up. ?

Ok so I’ve been kind of upset about this all day so I figured I would share this. I’m really nervous doing it because I don’t want to get judged for it. I feel so guilty about it all the time. So a couple of years ago I was babysitting a family friends kid, and they were crawling all over me, jumping up and down, and I wound up having a groinal response (I really don’t wanna say the kind.) I kind of put it in the back of my mind and forgot about it, but around last year I remembered and latched onto it and it threw me into my OCD spiral. I remembered this happened maybe two other times before that, and of course I felt weird and guilty by it. I didn’t experience any sexual arousal, yet this happened to me. I always had sexually intrusive thoughts ever since I was a little kid, so perhaps I was just having a groinal response to when that was happening because I was thinking “omg what if...” or whatever, but of course I can’t remember my thoughts. Now I know what a groinal response is and that they come in all shapes and sizes (lol) but because this happened *before* I realized I had POCD, my brain has convinced me that it was some kind of genuine attraction and that I wanted to do something bad

Why do people say “you used to be able to do it in the past”, “you need to work with your social workers”, “you have to try harder”, “you have to fight” when in fact that’s ALL I’ve been doing. Why do people f*****g think this is how I want to live. That I chose this. The past defines who I am now. Yet disregard that but tell me I was once able to do things. I’m so sick and tired. Mental health industry is greedy. Insurance is greedy. Yet other conditions are covered. I’m getting told “screw you” from left and right, nothing is affordable as they claim and the only thing I can get is a bandaid for my symptoms. And they say I need to keep living to keep suffering. This world is B******t!!! Try self ERP? I’ve done it. I’ve been trying but there are lots of questions because it’s not a cookie cutter!

Not looking for reassurance, but has anybody ‘overcome’ false memory OCD? I have been working at it and the thoughts have become a lot less powerful and intrusive over a week (the memories are terrible) I am just worried they won’t let me be happy again in the long term. That I’ll always feel like a bad person Not needing reassurance, just wanting to hear anybody’s stories?

This is kinda off the topic of hocd but whenever I get into some of my bad phases with hocd I’ve always turned to porn. And even before hocd, porn was a regular thing for me. But even as of know I watch porn 2-3 times a day (which includes master-bating). So I thought to my self am I becoming addicted? Now I’m looking up stuff on porn addiction and all this other crap and I got the same anxiety when I first got my hocd. But my point is if I was to quit porn, can I ever watch porn again? how am I supposed to cope with my hocd? Is it gay now that I stopped looking at heterosexual porn? Just a little advice would help.

Feel like I'm stuck In a trap with my harm OCD, I've just moved in with a friend and now the thoughts are centered on him. Im looking for a new job but I don't know how I'm going to do it as I'm just constantly anxious and bombarded by intrusive thoughts. I don't even know who I am anymore

Kinda new to the whole OCD thing, well at least of this severity. I started having intrusive thoughts a few weeks ago, and i don’t know what to do. I’m terrified that I’m turning into a sociopath and might hurt people

Harm OCD - intrusive thoughts help pls!! I’m on to a new obsession at the moment with harm ocd which is children related. I’m having similar intrusive thoughts people with children might have (fear of harming their kid) but because I don’t have children yet, it’s the fear that I will harm my own children when I eventually have them :( Does anyone else find it hard to differentiate what is general irritable with children when they’re being loud or something and what’s OCD? Like I feel like I’m gonna get really angry at a kid or something and do something crazy and it scares me so much but then it also feels like I actually want to do that to a child eventually, like I have some sort of plan :( Pls help, I’m not asking for reassurance but this obsession is really new to me. Coping mechanisms?

The thoughts are incredibly real at the moment. Thoughts that come into my mind include a vivid "You are gay, just accept it." The pressure is too much. It feels like my brain is being mushed and flattened I've reached yet another low and I'm here praying that these thoughts will stop bullying me and controlling my life.

Does anyone else with ROCD have the compulsion to tell their partner every single thing they think they’ve done wrong and if not they think they will betray their partner of some sort? And if so, how do you deal with this? I don’t want to keep confessing to my boyfriend all these silly things that aren’t silly to my ocd and make me feel guilty x

I have very long red hair that I am proud of and feel like it defines me quite a bit; I am also a compulsive picker. I pick my lips, skin, and bite my cheeks. Several months ago I started picking at my scalp and it got worse. I have been to the dermatologist. I have been under massive stress since last year (divorce, death of mom, etc) and had no appetite so I ate very little after depression which also affected hair loss. I have added anxiety over losing my hair but I cannot stop picking and eating bits of my scalp. Specific solutions or personal experiences would be appreciated.

Ugh. A bowl broke inside my dishwasher, I found two pieces that fit perfect but missing one small piece. Checked the drain filter thing and all over with a flash light. Panicking thinking we (my child and I) ate off of other dishes that perhaps have shards of glass. They look okay. Took every ounce of me to put food into a bowl today without feeling I was endangering us ? going to be even harder to use the dishwasher not knowing where the piece is...

As I’m getting older I am starting to find it harder and harder to be happy. I get anxious and obsessive over everything. I feel disconnected from my childhood friends and find myself pickier/anxious when trying to make new ones. Nothing in my life feels good enough. I don’t really know who I am anymore, and I don’t know if knowing I have OCD for sure is going to help or just make me more sad.

Does anyone else obsess over whether or not they have OCD? I noticed that I’ve been compulsively taking screening tests and sort of ticking off popular themes I’ve had to prove to myself that I’m not a faker.

Hey guys do you have a problem with figuring out what kind of therapy to do for your ocd? I’m suffering from ROCD and I have divided opinion on how should I approach it because my therapist says that I should rationalize my thoughts and on the other hand everything I see elsewhere is that you shouldn’t pay attention to your ocd thoughts but my therapist says that by ignoring them that’s why they come back because you’re just oppressing them. Does anyone have similar issue?

Can't eat cos Contamination OCD says that nothing has been cooked correctly and I end up burning everything I cook. Fml I'm hungry, sorry I'm just done with this illness. I don't want to get sick by eating something but screw it, I haven't eaten in two days you know? Rant over, take care guys :)

Hi. Does anyone out there have Suicide OCD? If so, I’d love to chat. It’s a new theme for me and extremely scary. Just would like to talk to someone who is experienced with it. Thanks!

WHY DO I FEEL ATTRACTED TO KIDS IM SO EXHAUSTED WITH THIS??