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Has any one here ever gotten the groinal response. It makes everything so much more confusing.

i have been seriously thinking about asking my doctor to stop taking SSRI, it helped me a lot but at same time it feels weird, sad stuff wont make me cry anymore like movies or stuff, and it makes me feels weird, ik my ocd will probbly get worse but i think it is the better path to me :/ i dunno.. anyways, while i used sertraline i gathered some tools against my harm ocd and i have been seriously thinking about fighting it without meds, but with pure erp, what should i do?

How do you practice to be more present, not spend too much time thinking you will break up, or dont see a future together, and what has helped you during intimacy, for me its really hard like i never want ti even talk about it, i get very anxious, and start thinking that must mean something, but i know i want to be with my partner.

my ocd started in the age of 12-13 years.it’s the age then children are developing their own view on world, the age then they are turning to teenagers and start to think on their own, become a person with its own needs and opinion. but it became impossible to grow up then you are living in survival mode. when my peers were learning how to fight for themselves, i was learning how to hate myself , how to be afraid of myself and how to sabotage everything i was trying to do. ocd not only took a lot of years and possibilities from me but also took my right to have time and possibility for growing up. in a month i’m turning 26 years, but i don’t know how to fight for myself, i feel like all bad things people tell or do to me are deserved. so what now?.. i really try hard to learn this “language of living in society” but when you’re doing it at my age, it doesn’t help a lot. i feel like an alien who doesn’t understand earth human race. i’m afraid of this world and so so tired

I’m curious to know what everyone’s compulsions are. Some of mine are picking my nails, and my skin

I’m done with it all, I don’t know what’s true or what’s not anymore I feel scared I’m hiding something from one drunk night out, I feel as though I ruined my life that night that could’ve put me in jail due to doing something inappropriate with a female I have not heard anything or nothings came about from it but because I was intoxicated I don’t know what’s true, I’m done I can’t carry on it’s been over 1 year.

I’ve been seeing a therapist for almost 10 years. He’s helped me through sooo much. Recently I talked to him about a big (so I perceived) problem recently. He helped me through the situation and the actions I wanted to take to address it. Now I realize I was in a HUGE OCD spiral. Is it too much to expect him to have picked up on that and to only have addressed it through OCD strategies. He’s certified and we’ve done ERP before but only when I’ve asked/initiated it…. Do I need a new therapist?

I keep having these thoughts that I’m not good enough for anyone or anything because I’m not pure from the inside because of my trauma and mental illness and family issues, it’s like I’m dirty or broken in the inside and I must get cleaned or fixed, whenever I have a crush on someone I immediately get these thoughts, I’m not pure or clean from the inside, and why would this guy bother to get in a relationship with me when there are girls who had peaceful childhood in a loving household and are mentally stable and they are way more positive and cheerful than me, a relationship with them would be healthier, easier, and happier. And it doesn’t only apply to relationships, even friendships. I’m aware these are intrusive thoughts and OCD doesn’t define me, however I feel like these thoughts are right, I am actually not pure and full of traumas and complexes which makes any kind of relationship with me so difficult.

I have not been able to find peace since I had a hallucination that last 5 seconds. Before the hallucination I had a fear of schizophrenia and also had covid which made me worry ten times more. The day of the hallucination that last 5 seconds I only had about 3-4 hours of sleep on a early release. Ever snice then I been constantly worrying and paranoid because of it. Therapist unlikely to have schizophrenia and when I went to the hospital I was the least crazy person In there and told me go home because I'm not crazy told me to get off the internet and do something instead which is something I need to do I know On school weeks I stay up till 12 and wake up at 5:15 and stay up all day and then I get home sleep at the same time or I take a nap for like hour or two then up most of the night till like 1 and then I go back to sleep till I have to wake up again at 5:15 But I can't find peace with it being sleep problems to me I feel it mean I'm dying have schizophrenia or some type of cancer

I’m afraid ocd has changed me. It’s so hard for me to pray that I’ll still be straight or not to have my fears come true like in the beginning. That makes me anxious. I’m afraid to lose my fear because then what if it comes true. I’m afraid I’ll like it and just naturally change. I can’t explain it

Today someone told me to kill myself and how I should knowing I have a suicidal history. I reported them to messenger, but is there anything legal I can do? I’m pretty pissed and I think that they deserve more than a slap on the wrist. This is the third time someone has told me to kill myself.

Freaking out rn bc I took a Narcisst test on google, and it said severe…it mostly asked like cocky questions. I’m scared bc I don’t want to be one. I try to help others and always be there for them and now I have the worst anxiety about this. I have crippling anxiety rn this sucks 😭

Hey all, I'm currently dealing with some really bad thanatophobia (fear of death), it especially gets worse at night. My fear revolves around the process of dying, the inevitability of it, and the afterlife or potential lack thereof. I really don't know how to simultaneously acknowledge death and its inevitability while also combatting this fear. It feels like those are mutually exclusive in my brain. Usually I'm completely oblivious to death and thus am not fearful because I don't seem to even acknowledge it will happen to me. But if absolutely anything, internal or external, triggers the fear I'll suddenly become hyper aware of the inevitability of death and panic over it like it's new information to me. It seems the only way I can calm down from these panic attacks is to find a way to distract myself. I'm also constantly analysing death, I'm always wondering exactly how others in my life feel about it and I have an urge to talk about it with people but I fear that would also trigger it. I really am at a loss for what to do here. Help?

Happy Sunday Everyone! I know that OCD can be debilitating and the advice can seem to come from everywhere. What you need to understand is that anxeity is normal. You are having a normal reaction to a percieved fear. The only problem is thay your fear is fake! In the face of horrible intrusive thoughts and panic, Do Nothing! Don’t react, don’t ruminate, don’t use maybe, maybe not! Just sit and you will see it will pass! This may be hard but I challenge you this week to take one of your themes and put this into practice! Happy Sunday Everyone, Enjoy Yourself!♥️

Hey. Does ROCD ever go away? I’ve been dealing with OCD for about a decade, and it got really bad in May of last year. I’ve been with my partner for almost 3 years total, and we just got married a few weeks ago. There’s a lot of partner-based ROCD themes that I’m just stuck on, and that leads me to the “do I really love this person” rabbit hole. I know this is reassurance seeking, but does this ever go away? I feel like a really awful partner lately because I keep confessing really unkind things to him, and I’m worried that my doubts and obsessions will never be manageable or quieter.

I’ve been doing ERP and I’m currently poorly with covid so I have no distractions which doesn’t help but I just feel lost at the minute like I can’t cope anymore with this. I can’t eat, sleep, laugh, feel close to my partner or anything. My house is a state and It truly is awful from the moment i wake up until I go to sleep I’m tortured with thoughts, doubts and everything in between.

Meds didn't help at all. ERP not helpin so much. I feel I'm treatment resistent, anxiety/OCD so severe. What to do next?? Feelin lost n depressed..

So last night I tried to talk about it And I got told I shouldn't question it and that I am straight But when I got told that I had the worst chest pain in the world and now I feel even further away from being straight than ever. Idk how to pull myself back and I really do try to carry on but I feel so masculine when I am a feeling not to mention the groinal responses and butterfly emotions are really strong and I have lost my attraction to men I was close to accepting I was bi because I got relief from that but how have I even got here Is this still ocd because I feel so far away from myself and I feel like the only way out is to still accept I an bi Someone please help me work through this I can't get erp I am really lost

How are you and sum it up into one word or phrase 😊 💚Amazing 🧡Ok ❤️struggling 💙awful

Can’t tell if I’m exaggerating but I feel like some of my actions have a possibility of putting me in jail. What’s the point of living if I’ll probably just end up there